Common Sense

As I said I was impatient.
Unfortunatly, I really was today.
Why do people have no common sense? Or is it me?
What obvious, they dont get.
They're slow.... and their way of thinking is illogical.

Something that I can figure out with my common sense, must be explained to them.
Their sense of reality is small.
Money grows out of trees.
Dreams are pointless gaining of items.

You all need to:
Figure out how to find your common sense.
Gain a better sense of the WORLD.
Understand what is REALITY.
Understand money does NOT grow on trees.
Understand that your dreams will not all come true.
and GOD
UNDERSTAND THE FUCKING CONCEPT OF HOW WORK AND MAKING MONEY IS NOT EASY.
Sure you have goals, to gain stuff in life.
What you fail to understand, is how LONG it will take, how stupid it is to throw your money away on status, and how much WORK you will need to do, to get that!
You fail to understand the in between the lines stuff.

Stop looking at the big picture,
and think OUTSIDE THE BOX....
Find out exactly how much it will take.

Lets say you want.... a really expensive status item.
At your current age, if you are in high school,
This is what you must do first:

Either win the lottery at an early age!
OR~

Get good grades in all 4 years of high school
Dont flunk out of a class
gain access to a college
complete all 4 years of college with good grades
Somehow PAY for college
When you've finished paying for your college tuition (news flash, most parents do NOT pay for it all you WILL have a loan)
and you have finished with any other rent and loans.
At which point hopefully you have gotten a job,
Slowly save
try to work yourself up in position in your job
live off very little money for the first year (at least, sometimes for the first 5 or so years)
*THIS IS ALL IF YOU HAVE EVEN GOTTEN A JOB -_-*
If you get married, most likely you will have a debt again, if you have a big wedding.
Slowly save, again.
If you have kids, you will have to save for them,
their food,
their clothes,
their college money,
their funds,
their insurance,
you insurance,
their education.
ETC.

Note: that this only a portion of the crap you have to put up with once you're away from your parents -.-"
And this is based off of what graduates have writen to me and such. ONLY up to the point of the kid thing.

As I was saying,

Your dreams, are valuable, you are ALLOWED to dream. just do not get to into them, because once reality hits.
-most likely-
you will not, have those dreams.

And also,
please...
god...
do NOT...
voice these illogical dreams to me. It pisses me off XD my impatience with the stupidity of people is dropping.

Want to know my dreams?
I want to get accepted into a college,
I dont want to drop out of high school,
I want to get through college,
try to find a job,
have enough money to actually buy food with and live somewhere,
find someone or either adopt when I have enough money to support a child and an okay living area.
I dont want status items.
Money I could care less about, I just hope I have enough to live on.
I dont want a big house, im fine with an apartment, though I would not say no to a small house eventually x.x

And most importantly:
I want to be me.

How Far We've Come

I'm waking up at the start of the end of the world,
but its feeling just like every other morning before,
now i wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone,
the cars are moving like a half a mile an hour if that
and I started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye
can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?

chorus:
but i believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well i guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

i think it turned ten o'clock but i don't really know
then i can't remember caring for an hour or so
started crying and i couldn't stop myself
i started running but there's no where to run to
i sat down on the street and took a look at myself
said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell
say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

i believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well i guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
[How Far We've Come lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you
well its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you

but i believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well i guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

Stress

Im on the breaking point.
Today was hilarious sure,
We dressed plimus (THATS HOW IM SPELLING IT >_>) up as a merMAN, he had to wear girls shorts and we wrapped sparkly stuff around him as a skirt, gave him shell.... things XD like shell bras? dunno. and made his hair poofy and glittered him o_O;;
The zaits was a chipmunk...........
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*snicker* XD
The chipmunk costume was not complete until Nicole drew freckles on zait's face with eye liner XD

Anyways.
Everything that could have gone wrong HAS gone wrong today.
-I failed 2 tests.
-Im dropping in my grades.
-I lost my gym clothes and was forced to do the mile run even though my IEP says I shouldnt....
-I forgot my math homework
-I somewhat failed a math test
-3D art wasnt that enjoyable
-I was impatient today and annoyed at everyone else's stupidity
-I think I pissed off gally by mistake (sorry x.x)
-My mother and father dragged me along on stupid errands that lasted for 2 hours
-I lost the format paper for my essay
-I printed my essay on the last printer paper before realizing it was under the word count needed
-When I was about to get 1 relaxed moment the doorbell rung
-My Peer forgot to fill out the 2nd Draft Paper that I need for my grade
-I ate the last muffin T_T
-German test is tomorrow
-Math test is tomorrow
-3 projects due over the weekend that we randomly learned about today

Thats. Only. The. Big. Things.
Im so stressed I'm shaking.
This is NOT good.
And happy me said yesterday that omg! I havent been depressed in days!
I HAVENT BEEN THIS STRESSED IN YEARS.

God.
Gally,
Give me your fricken advice on stress free days.
You did you project on it...
I NEED IT.

XDDDD

Mdiddy says: (4:58:11 PM)
I need to take a shower soon : (
Lizz: ... 7/~ . 225/1000 says: (4:58:16 PM)
same =/
Mdiddy says: (4:58:17 PM)
I'm all covered in blood : (
Lizz: ... 7/~ . 225/1000 says: (4:58:22 PM)
why? o.o
Mdiddy says: (4:59:02 PM)
David came over, and we started playing GH2, and I was hardcore rocking so bad that I got a nosebleed, and then that made me laugh, so I started laughing, and got blood everywhere, and David stared in horror : (
Mdiddy says: (4:59:52 PM)
*delivers the news to viewers like you* : (
Lizz: ... 7/~ . 225/1000 says: (5:00:24 PM)
WHY DID YOU LAUGH WHEN YOUR NOSE WAS BLEEDING XDDD
Lizz: ... 7/~ . 225/1000 says: (5:00:32 PM)
sorry thats a hilarious mental image :P
Mdiddy says: (5:00:46 PM)
'Cause it was funny XD
Mdiddy says: (5:01:15 PM)
David didn't understand, though. He just saw me weilding a guitar and laughing with blood draining out of my face : (

:B d00d 2day waz a\/\/s0me

^---^ *glomp* OKAY!

Today, I missed school, the marching band went to like 3-4 schools and played the entire day... And we went back to the jr. high school. And major problem, I realized that Garrett was in the school XD (no duh me -smacks self-) So I reaalllyyy tryed not to look for him *cough*.... and I found him XD finally. and d00d o.o *glomps garrett* I missed you jerk XD but w.e, the smart self I am kinda ignored him. -.-" go me. ANYWAYS, I saw Min-Jung(sp?), beckah, laurie, and kayla! <33333

Thheeennn~ We went and participated in a crappy parade celebrating homecoming, there was a HUGE (huge huge huge huge fcking huuuggeee o.o) Bonfire! and then, I helped Alex, Meg, and Sara buy a senior :P WE BOUGHT THE IMPROVE CLUB GUY! GO US XD HE MUST DO OUR BIDDING TOMORROW! (well I didnt really buy him but still XD)
Anyways, The drumline bought Plimus(sp?) and Zaits XD I'll explain about what we make them do tomorrow.

The best part of the day was at practice before the parade, where some jack ass left his car in the middle of the parking lot, so the bass line had to walk around it. In otherwords, it made us sound like shit. So Kyle goes,
"I dont care if it's a car or a tornado that may suck you up into the sky and you might never come down, I DONT WANT YOU SOUNDING LIKE SHIT"
Which sounded like Mr. Jones...
and plimus(sp?) pointed that out XD So kyle said:
"I did not say nuclear explosion, I said meeny tornado!"
(apparently mr jones says nuclear explosion a lot)

I HAD TO KEEP MYSELF FROM LAUGHING MY HEAD OFF XDD
the way he said meeny was hilarious :3
x))))

go me xD in finding something totally funny in nothing.

Anyways one last note,
Johnny was being weird again XD and started conducting with his drum major staff XD and was dancing and twirling it around, and Rachel noticed that, and started laughing, which brought us all the notice it XD Funniest thing evar~

I lied, ONE LAST OTHER NOTE:
We locked Plimus(sp?) in a cage o.o;;
One of the instrument cages in the back room, it took them like, 5-10 minutes to get him in the cage xD then we got the door stuck XDDD


I love you guys~! Im currently in pain, tired, and I'm losing diddy time talking on my blog >_>
SUCKS TO BE ALL OF YOU~

Over and out <333

Oh Shitzor!

I havent posted much! So recent updates in my LIFE (ahahahaha I have a life!)

1. I dislocated my wrist
2. I talked to garrett again o.o
3. I missed a whole day of school for drumline stuff
4. I got a good grade on a math test
5. I uhm... bought a senior (XDDDD)
6. I've gotten addicted to Halo Live.
7. I haven't been majorly depressed in DAYS :3
8. THE NOT BEING DEPRESSED THING IS AWESOME T_T
9. This has been a fcking awesome week.
10. Can't think of much~! DESCRIPTION OF TODAY NEXT~!!!!