Song: Rainbow Veins [check it out people!]
High rise, veins of the avenue
Bright eyes and subtle variations of blue
Everywhere is balanced there like a rainbow above you
Street lights glisten on the boulevard
And cold nights make staying alert so hard
For heaven’s sake, keep me awake so I won’t be caught off guard
Clearly I am a passerby but I’ll find a place to stay
Dear pacific day, won’t you take me away?
Small town hearts of the New Year
Brought down by gravity, crystal clear
City fog and brave dialogue converge on the frontier
Make haste, I feel your heartbeat
With new taste for speed, out on the street
Find a road to a humble abode where both of our routes meet
The silver sound is all around and the colors fall like snow
The feeling of letting go, I guess we’ll never know
Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains
And I’ll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins
Cuz your heart has a lack of color and we should’ve known
That we’d grow up sooner or later cuz we wasted all our free time alone
Your nerves gather with the altitude
Exhale the stress so you don’t come unglued
Somewhere there is a happy affair, a ghost of a good mood
Wide eyed, panic on the getaway
The high tide could take me so far away
VCR’s and motorcars unite on the Seventh Day
A popular gauge will measure the rage of the new Post-Modern Age
Cuz somewhere along the line all the decades align
We were the crashing whitecaps
On the ocean
And what lovely seaside holiday, away
A palm tree in Christmas lights
My emotion
Struck a sparkling tone like a xylophone
As we spent the day alone
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
PB History
Since this is a place to store my thoughts for future reference, to see how they change, Im still gonna do that. Just because a lot of people read my blog now doesnt mean that's going to change.
-- A few weeks ago the topic of birth was brought up between me and my mother. We had been talking about abortion, and why or why not we would have one. She brought up how her friend had an abortion because the child was going to be disabled, and it would have ruined her marriage.
I disagreed fully. if a marriage was strong they should LOVE the child whether or not the child had some health issues. I'll always wonder if my decision would be different if I didnt have Edward for a brother. But I believe that even if the child would die 2 minutes... or a few hours after birth, at least they experienced a small amount of this world instead of nothing. If they're going to die you might as well try to give them everything you can.
I had always wondered what she would have done if she knew I was disabled. She said that after she found out she was pregnant again, they wanted her to go in for so many tests every week. And every night before the test, she would stand in the bathroom crying and wondering what the hell she would do if something was wrong. She couldn't take care of another disabled child, but she didnt want to give me up either. She wasn't sure what she'd do, and she worried so much. Eventually after one of the tests she told them that the stress was screwing her up, and she wasnt going to take anymore tests, let it be how it is.
So yea.
That's my pre birth history.
It's helped me decide how I feel on abortion, and helped me decide WHAT I would do with today's technology... and if I was given the information that my child would be disabled.
After Edward, I would have that child. Who knows, they could become the most absolute light of my life. Well, I know they would.
-- A few weeks ago the topic of birth was brought up between me and my mother. We had been talking about abortion, and why or why not we would have one. She brought up how her friend had an abortion because the child was going to be disabled, and it would have ruined her marriage.
I disagreed fully. if a marriage was strong they should LOVE the child whether or not the child had some health issues. I'll always wonder if my decision would be different if I didnt have Edward for a brother. But I believe that even if the child would die 2 minutes... or a few hours after birth, at least they experienced a small amount of this world instead of nothing. If they're going to die you might as well try to give them everything you can.
I had always wondered what she would have done if she knew I was disabled. She said that after she found out she was pregnant again, they wanted her to go in for so many tests every week. And every night before the test, she would stand in the bathroom crying and wondering what the hell she would do if something was wrong. She couldn't take care of another disabled child, but she didnt want to give me up either. She wasn't sure what she'd do, and she worried so much. Eventually after one of the tests she told them that the stress was screwing her up, and she wasnt going to take anymore tests, let it be how it is.
So yea.
That's my pre birth history.
It's helped me decide how I feel on abortion, and helped me decide WHAT I would do with today's technology... and if I was given the information that my child would be disabled.
After Edward, I would have that child. Who knows, they could become the most absolute light of my life. Well, I know they would.
Forum Post:// [Gaia]
Okay. This post hit me, it's insanely sad and crazy at the same time. The guy posting is actually knowledgable on the topic, he just has NO idea HOW to get his point across.
Topic Question:
"my gf is 13 and im 13 she wants to have kids plz tell me how to talk her out of it.
I need some help i dont kno wat to to .. plz"
After a few pages of people not giving much more than "dont" or "do it". I decided to give him some hard facts to help him make up an argument.
My Response:
"Honestly at 13 she must have a brain ailment or have learned NOTHING.
At that age there is an increased chance that giving birth to a child will cause issues for the child, issues for the mother, major stress, a change in lifestyle, an increased chance of death for both, and will ALWAYS change the mother no matter what.
She might have to drop out of school, have the issue of whether she keeps the child, you'll both have unnecessary stress, and possibly heart break if you do have to give the child up. It would change both of you for the worse, and your life would NOT be the same.
At 13 you should NOT be thinking about sex, ..... okay I lied, maybe thinking... but god dont try to have a fcking child. You honestly just need to straight out tell her "I dont think we should do this" or "We're way to young for that" or "I really dont want a child."
Her reaction may be hard, but this isnt something you should rush into... definitely not at 13, you cant even get a job to support the child.
If she doesnt respond well and still is trying to push you into it, she obviously doesnt respect your opinion and sad to say, you're relationship may not work.
If she is your first, and you have these complications, you're going to have to think hard about what this could mean in the future, and about her judgement... and honestly if it's right to keep it going. If she REALLY wants a child that much, you should love her enough NOT to do it. Even if she wants it, she could die. And it would definitely fck up her life. If she leaves you because of it, you did her well anyways.
I wish you luck in making a choice."
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In PM I also sent him a story about what happened to one of my old friends when she got pregnant young. He decided I had helped him enough, and actually called his girlfriend over to his house and made her read what I said.
I have yet to know what happened, But I hope it helped... god she should NOT throw her life away like that. Sure it's her decision, but if he doesnt want to... he shouldnt be pushed into it.
Anyways that's a news report on a kinda ironically sad issue xD
Topic Question:
"my gf is 13 and im 13 she wants to have kids plz tell me how to talk her out of it.
I need some help i dont kno wat to to .. plz"
After a few pages of people not giving much more than "dont" or "do it". I decided to give him some hard facts to help him make up an argument.
My Response:
"Honestly at 13 she must have a brain ailment or have learned NOTHING.
At that age there is an increased chance that giving birth to a child will cause issues for the child, issues for the mother, major stress, a change in lifestyle, an increased chance of death for both, and will ALWAYS change the mother no matter what.
She might have to drop out of school, have the issue of whether she keeps the child, you'll both have unnecessary stress, and possibly heart break if you do have to give the child up. It would change both of you for the worse, and your life would NOT be the same.
At 13 you should NOT be thinking about sex, ..... okay I lied, maybe thinking... but god dont try to have a fcking child. You honestly just need to straight out tell her "I dont think we should do this" or "We're way to young for that" or "I really dont want a child."
Her reaction may be hard, but this isnt something you should rush into... definitely not at 13, you cant even get a job to support the child.
If she doesnt respond well and still is trying to push you into it, she obviously doesnt respect your opinion and sad to say, you're relationship may not work.
If she is your first, and you have these complications, you're going to have to think hard about what this could mean in the future, and about her judgement... and honestly if it's right to keep it going. If she REALLY wants a child that much, you should love her enough NOT to do it. Even if she wants it, she could die. And it would definitely fck up her life. If she leaves you because of it, you did her well anyways.
I wish you luck in making a choice."
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In PM I also sent him a story about what happened to one of my old friends when she got pregnant young. He decided I had helped him enough, and actually called his girlfriend over to his house and made her read what I said.
I have yet to know what happened, But I hope it helped... god she should NOT throw her life away like that. Sure it's her decision, but if he doesnt want to... he shouldnt be pushed into it.
Anyways that's a news report on a kinda ironically sad issue xD
Monday, June 23, 2008
K. Island 2008
Halfway through my vacation.
Last sunday we woke up at 4 am and got on the plane for about 3-6 hours, I cant remember how long it was, I was sleeping with my head on my mother's lap the entire way. I hate plane rides, I always get sick. Anyways, we arrived in SC and got picked up by my grandpa (Ganya) to drive to K. Island.
We've been going to the beach and the pool, I've gotten tanned, taken bike rides... walked along the beach at night... it's so pretty here. We come every summer to visit my grandparents (Biddy and Ganya).
Most memorable day:
My dad and brother were out on their annual fishing trip, and Ganya decided that we should take me to do something too, so he suggested going to the downtown market. Now I wasnt so keen on shopping, but I had nothing else to do so I decided to play along. It took us about 1.5 hours to get from the island to downtown SC. We saw all these old churches and synagogues, and all these horse and carriages walking around. It was awesome. Finally I saw what the market actually was. It was comprised of 3-4 buildings, not very wide each, and all were about a football field in length and OPEN. Kinda like pavilions. There were stalls under them selling tons of handmade items, and other little trinkets that the locals have made. I got a beautiful dress, and I also found an adorable glass hermit crab. I love crabs xD I used to have pet crabs. Once we had walked through all the buildings and back, we walked through this hotel to get back to our car, but noticed this tea shop, so we walked in and sat down. We had British High Tea, meaning we each ordered a specific tea, and then in different courses they brought out little sandwiches, crumpets, fruits, and cakes. Oh my god I was so bloated. On the way home we were going on the bridge over the ocean, and it started storming like hell, to the point that the bridge started flooding and the cars passing us the opposite way splashed a wave up onto our car, pushing us across the road a bit. Best day so far!
Today we just celebrated my brother and mine's birthday, even though they havent come yet. The cake was sooo good and I got a small bracelet from my Biddy. <3
That's all so far.
Best friend news update:
SARA WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU XD
you've become a fcking vampire and sucking on the blood of yaoi all night. EVER THINK I WANNA TALK TO YOU. >.> Btw gabe is stalking your facebook, beware. Imma call you if I ever get signal. PM me on Gaia btch <3 Miss my garden gnome!
Last sunday we woke up at 4 am and got on the plane for about 3-6 hours, I cant remember how long it was, I was sleeping with my head on my mother's lap the entire way. I hate plane rides, I always get sick. Anyways, we arrived in SC and got picked up by my grandpa (Ganya) to drive to K. Island.
We've been going to the beach and the pool, I've gotten tanned, taken bike rides... walked along the beach at night... it's so pretty here. We come every summer to visit my grandparents (Biddy and Ganya).
Most memorable day:
My dad and brother were out on their annual fishing trip, and Ganya decided that we should take me to do something too, so he suggested going to the downtown market. Now I wasnt so keen on shopping, but I had nothing else to do so I decided to play along. It took us about 1.5 hours to get from the island to downtown SC. We saw all these old churches and synagogues, and all these horse and carriages walking around. It was awesome. Finally I saw what the market actually was. It was comprised of 3-4 buildings, not very wide each, and all were about a football field in length and OPEN. Kinda like pavilions. There were stalls under them selling tons of handmade items, and other little trinkets that the locals have made. I got a beautiful dress, and I also found an adorable glass hermit crab. I love crabs xD I used to have pet crabs. Once we had walked through all the buildings and back, we walked through this hotel to get back to our car, but noticed this tea shop, so we walked in and sat down. We had British High Tea, meaning we each ordered a specific tea, and then in different courses they brought out little sandwiches, crumpets, fruits, and cakes. Oh my god I was so bloated. On the way home we were going on the bridge over the ocean, and it started storming like hell, to the point that the bridge started flooding and the cars passing us the opposite way splashed a wave up onto our car, pushing us across the road a bit. Best day so far!
Today we just celebrated my brother and mine's birthday, even though they havent come yet. The cake was sooo good and I got a small bracelet from my Biddy. <3
That's all so far.
Best friend news update:
SARA WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU XD
you've become a fcking vampire and sucking on the blood of yaoi all night. EVER THINK I WANNA TALK TO YOU. >.> Btw gabe is stalking your facebook, beware. Imma call you if I ever get signal. PM me on Gaia btch <3 Miss my garden gnome!
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