Because this post will be...
Happy!
Oh my fcking god I know. Lets kill the sarcasm already.
Not only is this post my 100th post, which I honestly didn't realize until I clicked my blog and noticed that it said right there "HAY THAR THIS IS UR 100TH POST MAKE A PATHETIC BLOG POST DEDICATED TO IT1!!!!1!" (not really), but this is a rather large milestone in my life.
What could that milestone be?
Did I get a boyfriend? Ew no. D: don't joke about that, that's disgusting.
Did I learn how to fly? Yerp. Well no, that ended up in a broken... well I won't get into that...
The milestone is much more important!
Out of the hundreds of migraine medicines, I have tried a handful... if that. The first few did nothing, and the last one I've tried caused something called Serotonin Syndrome, which drained me of all energy... to the point that I was actually passing out every 30 minutes. And I'm not exaggerating. I would actually drop if I was standing if I didn't lie down and fall asleep. Also Serotonin Syndrome drops your blood pressure to an incredibly dangerous level, mine was so low that I was fainting whenever I stood up, and there was one point that my vision was going blood red, I was also shaking and couldn't control my muscle movements. The fact is, Migraine medicines are insanely dangerous because you can either not react, react somewhat, have the medicine treat some symptoms and not others, or reacts absolutely horribly or you could find that rare one... the one that treats you perfectly. And they never know what will happen, it's always a gamble.
I'm leading up to the insanely happy part! GET OVER THE SUSPENSE (....even if there is none, shut up).
I was under Serotonin Syndrome for about a month, before the doctors diagnosed pulled me off that medication on an emergency. A.k.a they didn't taper down the dosage, they stopped it immediately. Apparently that medication was also a high anti-depressant, which my body had adapted to so that I was normal on that dosage. I didn't know that it was an anti-depressant, and was surprised to find that once they had taken me off the medication I had absolutely no control over my emotions, I would be angry one second and crying the next. I would be talking to my mother normally, and then find myself so angry at absolutely nothing that I wanted to just punch a wall, and then I would realize that I had no reason to do so, and then become irrationally sad. It was a mess. Through this, I missed the last week of summer gym, and was medically excused from all of it and got an A. All is not lost!
I'm telling you this as a back story, so you understand the problems that CAN occur with these medications. Some medications have side effects that if you don't catch it, can blind you. Other's can kill you, etc.
The chances that you find one that treats every single symptom you have, is insanely rare. Especially with me, since I have a lot of issues, and I can only take one medication for all of them.
Celebrate the milestones as the come, even though they might be different from the norm.
I'm so happy, and I'm celebrating life also.
I've had another chance at life. And I say this in more ways that one. So many more ways...
The milestone is much more important!
Out of the hundreds of migraine medicines, I have tried a handful... if that. The first few did nothing, and the last one I've tried caused something called Serotonin Syndrome, which drained me of all energy... to the point that I was actually passing out every 30 minutes. And I'm not exaggerating. I would actually drop if I was standing if I didn't lie down and fall asleep. Also Serotonin Syndrome drops your blood pressure to an incredibly dangerous level, mine was so low that I was fainting whenever I stood up, and there was one point that my vision was going blood red, I was also shaking and couldn't control my muscle movements. The fact is, Migraine medicines are insanely dangerous because you can either not react, react somewhat, have the medicine treat some symptoms and not others, or reacts absolutely horribly or you could find that rare one... the one that treats you perfectly. And they never know what will happen, it's always a gamble.
I'm leading up to the insanely happy part! GET OVER THE SUSPENSE (....even if there is none, shut up).
I was under Serotonin Syndrome for about a month, before the doctors diagnosed pulled me off that medication on an emergency. A.k.a they didn't taper down the dosage, they stopped it immediately. Apparently that medication was also a high anti-depressant, which my body had adapted to so that I was normal on that dosage. I didn't know that it was an anti-depressant, and was surprised to find that once they had taken me off the medication I had absolutely no control over my emotions, I would be angry one second and crying the next. I would be talking to my mother normally, and then find myself so angry at absolutely nothing that I wanted to just punch a wall, and then I would realize that I had no reason to do so, and then become irrationally sad. It was a mess. Through this, I missed the last week of summer gym, and was medically excused from all of it and got an A. All is not lost!
I'm telling you this as a back story, so you understand the problems that CAN occur with these medications. Some medications have side effects that if you don't catch it, can blind you. Other's can kill you, etc.
The chances that you find one that treats every single symptom you have, is insanely rare. Especially with me, since I have a lot of issues, and I can only take one medication for all of them.
I am currently taking a medication at a very low dose due to my last issue (Serotonin Syndrome). I will move up to a Pharmaceutical dosage over time, but for now we're taking it slowly. This medication has the possibility to blind you or ruin your vision, but only by causing immense pressure in the eyes. It's easily avoidable if you detect it (which is quite easy to do since the pressure causes a lot of pain), and I have already gotten past the period in which this symptom would occur.
Pretty much, I have had NO symptoms. No side effects. Nothing. and that in itself is rare.
So far this year we have had a month of school and I have missed 2 days.
2 Days......
Only 2 Days.....
This medication could be the one to help me live my life free of migraines.
Celebrate the milestones as the come, even though they might be different from the norm.
I'm so happy, and I'm celebrating life also.
I've had another chance at life. And I say this in more ways that one. So many more ways...
You know I can't write about everything in my blog, right? ;)Some things are even more personal than what I want the world to see.
