I have been out of school since Thanksgiving Break.
During Thanksgiving break, I went to visit family. I knew it was a bad idea when I woke up that day and had a major headache, but I went into the car and sat for a 8 hour car ride getting sick the entire way. Met some family that day, and slept. Or tried to... I woke up the next morning feeling horrible, I can't explain it. I went to go eat lunch with everyone but I wasn't hungry at all and the thought of eating made me feel even worse. I made it through that day, and actually almost fell asleep on the floor at my grandma's. We got back to the hotel and I went to take a shower, when all of a sudden I yelled because I had just gotten this horrible stabbing pain in my chest. I moved around a bit and then bent over to pick up my pajama's and then nearly fell over because the pain was so bad, I couldn't even breathe. It took a while for me to fall asleep, and then after that I spent the rest of break feeling horrible, having bad pain, headaches, and not being able to eat much without wanting to vomit. We guessed it was a virus, and I drank a lot of water and forced myself to eat more than I would usually if I were feeling fine.
I got home from Thanksgiving and I think I went to one day of school, and then I woke up the next morning with swollen joints, and a monstrous headache. I couldn't even walk or sit right without being in pain. I thought maybe I had just slept wrong until I looked in the mirror and noticed I looked... weird. I'm usually thin but this was just odd... I couldn't figure out what was different until a few days later I weighed myself and realized I had lost about 5 pounds in a matter of days. After realizing that, I started forcing myself to eat a TON. Breakfast, Huge Lunch, Huge Dinner, snacks in between... and I would eat stuff with a lot of substance too. The next day I looked in the mirror again and saw that parts of my legs were turning yellow, and I could see my hip bones. I weighed myself again and I had lost a total of 10 pounds in about 3 days, and eating more than usual didn't even help.
That started the long road of diagnostics, blood tests... etc. I have 8 vials of blood taken, and I can't even remember how many tests they did. All I remember is what was important, that everything came back negative. I still didn't get any better, I was getting worse. Losing weight at a steady rate and my legs were getting dark spots. I was tested for liver and kidney failure but I was negative for those also.
All of a sudden my weight stabilized, the dark patches stopped appearing, and I stopped being sick to my stomach.
Then I couldn't sleep.
This wasn't just having trouble falling asleep, this was being absolutely exhausted and lying in bed from 11 pm to 6 am, falling asleep finally and then waking up an hour later with my mind feeling wide awake and my body not being able to move. I was getting one hour of sleep a day, sometimes only one hour every other day... and I couldn't fix it. I can't remember what happened to help, but I forced myself to stay up until I literally fell over, and then I slowly moved my sleep cycle back to a normal time. It took a week to be able to sleep more than 5 hours, but now I'm back to normal. I still have no idea what caused that.
At this point in time I am off any migraine medication. The minute I stopped taking it, I started being able to concentrate, I can now do math problems and listen to music at the same time, and I don't have as many issues with finding a word I want to say, or talking in general. I went from a person who was testing as if they had just had a major concussion, to a person that was back to normal... all because I went off that stupid medication.
Migraines have stopped for the most part, and I don't need to search for another medication because I'm doing semi-okay... plus I've failed practically all the classes of migraine medications.
Yesterday was like a freak accident. I've recently had swollen toes, and they started hurting like crazy and getting purple bruised spots everywhere on the toes, so I went to go see a foot doctor. He looked at my foot once and told me I have Chilblains. Which means my toes have gotten so cold they're really close to being frost bitten. The purple is where the blood vessels burst. And then he showed me how I could tell, and pressed on my foot... but got silent and told me my feet were FREEZING, even though his office was warm. I told him yeah, they've gotten worse recently... and that my hands have always been insanely cold. Even my hands have gotten worse though, it's gotten to the point that it hurts to type or open door knobs. I thought it was okay but apparently, by freak accident... I may have found the cause of my migraines, and of my many other issues.
The reason my hands and feet are so cold, is because the circulation to those areas is horrible. I knew that. Apparently that's called Reynauds (sp?). And Reynauds (sp?) can be caused by infections, or auto immune diseases. Some Auto Immune Diseases deal with blood vessels, making them contract or spasm, etc. Migraines are caused by a change in blood pressure / a change in your blood vessels of the brain. If I have an Auto Immune Disease, I might be able to stop my migraines by managing the disease.
Fun part is, you can't cure Auto Immune Diseases. There are just ways to manage them. Honestly, I just want an answer. I can't get my hopes up though, there's a chance this will come back as being negative.
Anyways that was an update of shit that's been happening, explaining some crap about my medical side of my life.
There's a ton of crud about school and my friends and my family (my mother most importantly) that I need to eventually write about but my hands are hurting like crazy, so I should wrap this up.
"In youth, it was a way I had,
To do my best to please,
And change, with every passing lad,
To suit his theories.
But now I know the things I know,
And do the things I do;
And if you do not like me so,
To hell, my love, with you!"
~Dorothy Parker
