New Updates as of May 30th:
1. Music Playlist now has all the songs I've ever posted on this blog (cool eh?)
2. Made a Banner for the top (Finally...) Sorry it's bad, I wasn't gonna spend TOO much time on it...
3. Added new info, Changed other stuff that's been here
4. Moved things around
5. Got rid of the youtube videos (WOOT)
6. Added a Counter recently (in the past month)
7. Changed my Profile
Since this blog has gone through some major over-hauling...
I've finally decided I might as well give this link out to everyone, so it'll be in my IM sub name (if anyone cares).
If I got over 100 people looking at this damn blog, why the hell would I care if my friends irl look.
SOOO, to all you that sometime visit this... if you ever do... HI! x_x
Also: I decided Jingle Bomb needs a new introduction...
It's a new year, and a new me! So here we go:
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Introduction:
JingleBomb was made originally as a private blog, just to rant on.
One day I switched it to public by mistake, and was surprised at how many people responded in either email or IM.
The results were surprising, so ever since I have been ranting about my private life, dreams, fears, to over 100 people. I'm crazy aren't I. I know I've threatened you idiots with "closing down the blog" at least twice.... or more *cough*. But yea, I doubt I'll ever do that. Let my future self prove me wrong someday! ANYWAYS, Read about my life... I dont care.... don't get offended by what I say.... etc... Most of my posts tend to rant, and or be emo/depressing. Live with it. I try to post happeh stuff when I get around to it.
Oh and just a reminder...
I have the power to block IP Addresses. So if one of my friends annoys me about my posts/gets mad at them etc, you're gone. Solves the problem!
Have a lousy day, and hope it blows up. If it doesnt, just throw this blog at it.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Viva La Vida
"Viva La Vida"
I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
(Ohhh)
It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in.
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become
Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
(Ohhhhh Ohhh Ohhh)
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
Oooooh Oooooh Oooooh
Artist: Coldplay
I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
(Ohhh)
It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in.
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become
Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
(Ohhhhh Ohhh Ohhh)
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
Oooooh Oooooh Oooooh
Artist: Coldplay
The Kill
"The Kill"
What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do? (Oh, oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you (from you)
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.
Ah, ah
Oh, oh
Ah, ah
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break...?
(What are you waiting for?)
Bury me, bury me
(I'm not running from you)
What if I
What if I
What if I
What if I
Bury me, bury me
Artist: 30 Seconds To Mars
What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do? (Oh, oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you (from you)
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.
Ah, ah
Oh, oh
Ah, ah
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break...?
(What are you waiting for?)
Bury me, bury me
(I'm not running from you)
What if I
What if I
What if I
What if I
Bury me, bury me
Artist: 30 Seconds To Mars
"Goodbye To You"
"Goodbye To You"
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
[Chorus]
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
[Chorus x2]
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
Sang originally by: Michelle Branch
Favorite Version of mine by: Mehgan (of youtube)
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
[Chorus]
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
[Chorus x2]
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
Sang originally by: Michelle Branch
Favorite Version of mine by: Mehgan (of youtube)
80th Post: Dead Birdy + Friend Update!
The following is an email rant to Diddy <33
Unfortunately... due to past events he can't come on IM much at all anymore, so we've been emailing like crazy. And instead of writing it all again, Imma be a lazy ass and copy and paste the whole email.
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Friday, May 30; 7:34 PM
To: Diddy
x_o
Okay so my neighbors called yesterday, and when I came home my dad was like "oh yea, the shepper's called, call them back soon."
So I was thinking "shit." because since when does a middle-aged couple call me? And why...
So I decided I either screwed up somehow, or they needed something, neither of which was necessarily a good thing...
I called them back and she picked up and said "Oh yea, Hi Elizabeth! Look we're going away for a week and I wanted to ask you for a HUGE favor."
Me:"Eeeerrrrr...sure, what do you need? ><"
Her:"Well, I dont have the slip to stop the mail and the post office is closed, so every other day or so could you go down to the street and pick up the mail and newspapers? You can just put them in the porch, and since it's getting warmer, can you water my plants on the porch also? I'll have Rick put a hose out for you."
Me:"Sure thing ^^ I did this for you last time you went away."
Her:"Well....there's a little catch... seeeee... all the blossoms are dropping from the trees right? and we opened our pool a bit early this year, cause we didn't know we were leaving this soon."
Me:"o_x;;.......Erm....yea? whatcha need?"
Her:"You know the skimmer thing? It's like a little flap in the pool that collects all the crap from the surface of the pool. It's on the right, and all you do is lift the lid off, and there's a little basket in there, and you just dump it out on the sidewalk. That's all."
Me:"Okay, sounds easy enough, what... every other day or so?"
Her:"Yep! Thanks soooo much, you're being pretty cool about this, hey... I'll pay you okay?"
Me:"DD: No no, it's okay. You're my neighbor."
Her:"Nonsense, I'm sure you want to go see some movies this summer or something, so when I get back I'll pay you."
Me:"....well okay x_x Have a good time!"
Her:"Thanks! Bye!"
OKAY SO
Main point of this email?
Coming up -_____-
Ever thought emptying a "skimmer" was easy? Sounded easy? Was simple?....
PAIN IN THE FUCKING ASS.
I went into their backyard and walked around the pool trying to find it, found the ONLY thing that could be what she described, opened the top off....
And saw a shit load of blossoms. So I was like.... errr I can't even see a fucking basket XD;;
And I was hesitant to stick my hands in there, because I couldn't even SEE anything... and from all my memories I remember the public pool's skimmer's being FILLED with bees and stuff right?
So I get a stick and get the mob of blossoms out, which actually makes the skimmer start working again and MORE blossoms start coming in, so every few seconds or so I had to get the new batch of blossoms out, and I stuck my hands around and couldn't find a basket.
Couldn't even find anything that could possibly MOVE.
So I go back to my house and ask my dad, figuring that he has more knowledge of swimming pools than me. And he couldn't find any fcking basket so we just emptied out all the shit that we could see, and went back home.
TODAY:
I had to go back and water her plants and re-empty the thing.
So I lift the top.
"O______________O WHAT THE (E^&*###&%^ *drops top and steps back*"
There. Was. Some. Kinda. Animal. In. There.
No fucking way was I sticking my hand in there. (no comments about how wrong that sounds.)
So I went back to my house and was like "DAAADDDDDDD <3333 CCOMMEEE SEEEE THIS!"
So I somehow got him to come with me to the pool, and he was like "what? o_o *opens top*......okay get me....2 sticks or something.... quick?"
So I got the sticks (Im saying "so" a lot again >_> Damnit) and he lifts out this little thing which we thought was a little rodent or something.
And he puts it down on the sidewalk, and we notice...
It's a baby bird ._.
A -REALLY- cute baby bird. I was like "T________________T"
and apparently my dad noticed and he said "This is why most people don't have swimming pools here., especially why we never even considered one."
So we buried the little birdy D: I felt so bad. My dad was about to just chuck it over the fence and I got pissed. So I guess he played along and we just dug a little hole a bit away from the pool (evil pool) and buried the little guy.
Im kinda glad he was already dead.... in a way... I dont know how I would have dealed with a DYING birdy.
I love birds T_T
And this was the cutest thing ever.
We guessed he had just started flying, and since these bird's don't have very good eyesight at that age (it was really young) he got really tired and just dropped, (which they do) but dropped into the pool and drowned ;~;
*END OF BIRDY RANT*!
Warning: New rant BD
So that was my day x_x
Along with convincing my dad to let me go to the very last ever Improve Club meeting (the seniors are graduating...)
So I saw everyone, which was cool. And the improve thing was hilarious....
Along with a "Roasting of the Seniors" where all the seniors had to stand up and we insulted them and pretty much... roasted them! xDD
One of the comments to this one Senior was by SanTino:
"Well it's not like the girl's jeans and the little headphones and emo tops make you look gay or anything."
Other Guy:"Exactly! We're not saying you're gay, your girl friend just looks like a guy."
Improve Club Members: "o_o;;;;; XDDDDDDDDDD *falls over in laughter*"
Guy we were roasting: ">_________>;; *tackles the guy who made the comment and starts smacking his butt*"
Guy who made the comment: "Gonna miss you steve XDD STOP ABUSING ME"
So along with that... SanTino (a 10th grader) was named the leader of Improve, and was passed the Improve Staff of Wonder. And then he could pick his Vice President and stuffles. So Improve club (to everyone's surprise) is NOT gonna die <333 Awesome!
BUT!
Guess what <33
Apparently Im not loved very much.
I mean, this hurt a LOT xD
Erica is having some kinda end of the year party or something. And invited everyone in our friend group right?
Im not sure if it's her birthday, or just an end of the year party....
but EVERYONE that I know (friend wise) is going. And a LOT of them don't even know her well O_o which makes me guess it's an end of the year thing.
And one of them comes up to me and is like "yo liz when you coming to the party?"
Other friend: "o-o;;;;;; *motions to her to shut the fck up*"
Me:"What party o_o;"
Friend:"At ericas! Come oooonnn you know you want to."
me:"Uhm... I wasn't invited.... O_o;"
Friend:"Psh everyone was invited."
Me:"No...I wasn't x_x;;.."
Other Other Friend:"That's odd... are you sure?"
Me:"Well considering no one has even fucking called me in the past 5 months, it's not that surprising. *walks away annoyed*"
Megan: *runs after me* Liz D: Omg they were such assholes... sheesh.... hey, Imma call you EVERYDAY after school from now on kays? <333"
Me:" <33333 xD Thanks~ It's nice to know sometimes what's even going on with my "friends" xD"
Megan:"Iunno about this Erica thing... well I mean... Im going.... but like, gah Im sorry XD"
Me:"XD dude it's kay, I've just been feeling a bit forgotten and all. Not by you and sara, but shit... that's 2 out of all my friends. Kinda is a bit on the annoying/hurtful side?"
Megan:"=/ Yea.... *huggles*"
Me:"x3"
So anyways.
Im in a bad mood xDD;
Cause now I'm TOTALLY sure that my friends dont even notice I'm gone.
Only Megan and Sara do, and only Sara cares enough to call or try to talk to me. Maybe megan will start xD
Woww...
News:
Alex just texted me with "Hey you going to tekko game?"
Me:"Wtf is that? xD"
Alex:"what? you DONT KNOW?"
Me:"....no?"
Alex:"WHERE THE FCK HAVE YOU BEEN? EVERYONE KNOWS!"
Me:"Wow sherlock. I've been stuck in my house which is hell. No one's talked to me for at least a month, besides megan and sara. So how the fck do you expect me to know."
Pissed me off.
I think I was a bit mean to her
I feel bad. Oh well.
Oooo wait she texted back.
.......
"idk, so can you come?"
Oh my god XD *shoots self*
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FCK IT IS XDDD
So whatever x_x
Sorry about this long email ._. I'll be surprised if you read it all.....
Just had to rant a bit xDD
Goodnight <33333
*huggles*
Unfortunately... due to past events he can't come on IM much at all anymore, so we've been emailing like crazy. And instead of writing it all again, Imma be a lazy ass and copy and paste the whole email.
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Friday, May 30; 7:34 PM
To: Diddy
x_o
Okay so my neighbors called yesterday, and when I came home my dad was like "oh yea, the shepper's called, call them back soon."
So I was thinking "shit." because since when does a middle-aged couple call me? And why...
So I decided I either screwed up somehow, or they needed something, neither of which was necessarily a good thing...
I called them back and she picked up and said "Oh yea, Hi Elizabeth! Look we're going away for a week and I wanted to ask you for a HUGE favor."
Me:"Eeeerrrrr...sure, what do you need? ><"
Her:"Well, I dont have the slip to stop the mail and the post office is closed, so every other day or so could you go down to the street and pick up the mail and newspapers? You can just put them in the porch, and since it's getting warmer, can you water my plants on the porch also? I'll have Rick put a hose out for you."
Me:"Sure thing ^^ I did this for you last time you went away."
Her:"Well....there's a little catch... seeeee... all the blossoms are dropping from the trees right? and we opened our pool a bit early this year, cause we didn't know we were leaving this soon."
Me:"o_x;;.......Erm....yea? whatcha need?"
Her:"You know the skimmer thing? It's like a little flap in the pool that collects all the crap from the surface of the pool. It's on the right, and all you do is lift the lid off, and there's a little basket in there, and you just dump it out on the sidewalk. That's all."
Me:"Okay, sounds easy enough, what... every other day or so?"
Her:"Yep! Thanks soooo much, you're being pretty cool about this, hey... I'll pay you okay?"
Me:"DD: No no, it's okay. You're my neighbor."
Her:"Nonsense, I'm sure you want to go see some movies this summer or something, so when I get back I'll pay you."
Me:"....well okay x_x Have a good time!"
Her:"Thanks! Bye!"
OKAY SO
Main point of this email?
Coming up -_____-
Ever thought emptying a "skimmer" was easy? Sounded easy? Was simple?....
PAIN IN THE FUCKING ASS.
I went into their backyard and walked around the pool trying to find it, found the ONLY thing that could be what she described, opened the top off....
And saw a shit load of blossoms. So I was like.... errr I can't even see a fucking basket XD;;
And I was hesitant to stick my hands in there, because I couldn't even SEE anything... and from all my memories I remember the public pool's skimmer's being FILLED with bees and stuff right?
So I get a stick and get the mob of blossoms out, which actually makes the skimmer start working again and MORE blossoms start coming in, so every few seconds or so I had to get the new batch of blossoms out, and I stuck my hands around and couldn't find a basket.
Couldn't even find anything that could possibly MOVE.
So I go back to my house and ask my dad, figuring that he has more knowledge of swimming pools than me. And he couldn't find any fcking basket so we just emptied out all the shit that we could see, and went back home.
TODAY:
I had to go back and water her plants and re-empty the thing.
So I lift the top.
"O______________O WHAT THE (E^&*###&%^ *drops top and steps back*"
There. Was. Some. Kinda. Animal. In. There.
No fucking way was I sticking my hand in there. (no comments about how wrong that sounds.)
So I went back to my house and was like "DAAADDDDDDD <3333 CCOMMEEE SEEEE THIS!"
So I somehow got him to come with me to the pool, and he was like "what? o_o *opens top*......okay get me....2 sticks or something.... quick?"
So I got the sticks (Im saying "so" a lot again >_> Damnit) and he lifts out this little thing which we thought was a little rodent or something.
And he puts it down on the sidewalk, and we notice...
It's a baby bird ._.
A -REALLY- cute baby bird. I was like "T________________T"
and apparently my dad noticed and he said "This is why most people don't have swimming pools here., especially why we never even considered one."
So we buried the little birdy D: I felt so bad. My dad was about to just chuck it over the fence and I got pissed. So I guess he played along and we just dug a little hole a bit away from the pool (evil pool) and buried the little guy.
Im kinda glad he was already dead.... in a way... I dont know how I would have dealed with a DYING birdy.
I love birds T_T
And this was the cutest thing ever.
We guessed he had just started flying, and since these bird's don't have very good eyesight at that age (it was really young) he got really tired and just dropped, (which they do) but dropped into the pool and drowned ;~;
*END OF BIRDY RANT*!
Warning: New rant BD
So that was my day x_x
Along with convincing my dad to let me go to the very last ever Improve Club meeting (the seniors are graduating...)
So I saw everyone, which was cool. And the improve thing was hilarious....
Along with a "Roasting of the Seniors" where all the seniors had to stand up and we insulted them and pretty much... roasted them! xDD
One of the comments to this one Senior was by SanTino:
"Well it's not like the girl's jeans and the little headphones and emo tops make you look gay or anything."
Other Guy:"Exactly! We're not saying you're gay, your girl friend just looks like a guy."
Improve Club Members: "o_o;;;;; XDDDDDDDDDD *falls over in laughter*"
Guy we were roasting: ">_________>;; *tackles the guy who made the comment and starts smacking his butt*"
Guy who made the comment: "Gonna miss you steve XDD STOP ABUSING ME"
So along with that... SanTino (a 10th grader) was named the leader of Improve, and was passed the Improve Staff of Wonder. And then he could pick his Vice President and stuffles. So Improve club (to everyone's surprise) is NOT gonna die <333 Awesome!
BUT!
Guess what <33
Apparently Im not loved very much.
I mean, this hurt a LOT xD
Erica is having some kinda end of the year party or something. And invited everyone in our friend group right?
Im not sure if it's her birthday, or just an end of the year party....
but EVERYONE that I know (friend wise) is going. And a LOT of them don't even know her well O_o which makes me guess it's an end of the year thing.
And one of them comes up to me and is like "yo liz when you coming to the party?"
Other friend: "o-o;;;;;; *motions to her to shut the fck up*"
Me:"What party o_o;"
Friend:"At ericas! Come oooonnn you know you want to."
me:"Uhm... I wasn't invited.... O_o;"
Friend:"Psh everyone was invited."
Me:"No...I wasn't x_x;;.."
Other Other Friend:"That's odd... are you sure?"
Me:"Well considering no one has even fucking called me in the past 5 months, it's not that surprising. *walks away annoyed*"
Megan: *runs after me* Liz D: Omg they were such assholes... sheesh.... hey, Imma call you EVERYDAY after school from now on kays? <333"
Me:" <33333 xD Thanks~ It's nice to know sometimes what's even going on with my "friends" xD"
Megan:"Iunno about this Erica thing... well I mean... Im going.... but like, gah Im sorry XD"
Me:"XD dude it's kay, I've just been feeling a bit forgotten and all. Not by you and sara, but shit... that's 2 out of all my friends. Kinda is a bit on the annoying/hurtful side?"
Megan:"=/ Yea.... *huggles*"
Me:"x3"
So anyways.
Im in a bad mood xDD;
Cause now I'm TOTALLY sure that my friends dont even notice I'm gone.
Only Megan and Sara do, and only Sara cares enough to call or try to talk to me. Maybe megan will start xD
Woww...
News:
Alex just texted me with "Hey you going to tekko game?"
Me:"Wtf is that? xD"
Alex:"what? you DONT KNOW?"
Me:"....no?"
Alex:"WHERE THE FCK HAVE YOU BEEN? EVERYONE KNOWS!"
Me:"Wow sherlock. I've been stuck in my house which is hell. No one's talked to me for at least a month, besides megan and sara. So how the fck do you expect me to know."
Pissed me off.
I think I was a bit mean to her
I feel bad. Oh well.
Oooo wait she texted back.
.......
"idk, so can you come?"
Oh my god XD *shoots self*
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FCK IT IS XDDD
So whatever x_x
Sorry about this long email ._. I'll be surprised if you read it all.....
Just had to rant a bit xDD
Goodnight <33333
*huggles*
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Closure
I created a video.
Found some old video recordings of me and an old friend whom you all know,
And it made me kind of sad at first, kinda like having your memories hit you in the face.
But after spending 5 hours on editing and putting it together,
I can now watch it with a smile, and laugh.
Because, these memories were fucking hilarious.
So in a way I guess this is closure eh?
A small step in the long process.
and as Ash once said to me:
"The pain won't ever go away, you'll just learn how to live around it more and more."
So I'm making steps.
I've found someone who has gone through almost exactly what I have. [Ash]
And I can talk to her about anything.
I've also found an awesome person, who I can also talk to about almost everything. [Sara]
And I really hope my friendship with her will grow even more, because honestly...
she's a fucking awesome person, and makes me laugh more then ANYONE ever has.
So Im walking slowly along the road, tripping a few times, but also getting a lot stronger then I ever have.
In a way I guess it's good I've experienced this. I would give anything to go back and have this never happen, but also it has helped me. Gathering these experiences in life, will hopefully help me get to my goal of being able to talk one on one with a person and help them through theirs. Life is all about passing on information, and watching as the information you have... changes and grows.
Found some old video recordings of me and an old friend whom you all know,
And it made me kind of sad at first, kinda like having your memories hit you in the face.
But after spending 5 hours on editing and putting it together,
I can now watch it with a smile, and laugh.
Because, these memories were fucking hilarious.
So in a way I guess this is closure eh?
A small step in the long process.
and as Ash once said to me:
"The pain won't ever go away, you'll just learn how to live around it more and more."
So I'm making steps.
I've found someone who has gone through almost exactly what I have. [Ash]
And I can talk to her about anything.
I've also found an awesome person, who I can also talk to about almost everything. [Sara]
And I really hope my friendship with her will grow even more, because honestly...
she's a fucking awesome person, and makes me laugh more then ANYONE ever has.
So Im walking slowly along the road, tripping a few times, but also getting a lot stronger then I ever have.
In a way I guess it's good I've experienced this. I would give anything to go back and have this never happen, but also it has helped me. Gathering these experiences in life, will hopefully help me get to my goal of being able to talk one on one with a person and help them through theirs. Life is all about passing on information, and watching as the information you have... changes and grows.
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