I may die. (not from old age morons >>....pretty young)
Oh my god XD
Okay so I'm kinda worried, and also a bit stressed, but happy too...
Happy that I FINALLY have the answer. Sheesh. Stupid adults thinking I can't handle it. In this case I'd WANT to know.
So anyways here's how I found out:
I went to a new doctor for my head, he's pretty good and was actually really interested in my case, because I'm a bit abnormal in a slight way. All of my symptoms are NORMAL for migrainers, I just have the most amount of symptoms he's ever seen. While some people have one or two kinds of migraines, I have 5 or 7. Along with other various neurological disorders such as vision Auras etc.
Vision Auras affect your vision (Obviously). There are two different kinds for me, with migraines and without. Most of mine are without, which is odd because most people get them WITH headaches. Anyways the Auras are usually things such as Dots in your vision, lines, zigzags, seeing half of people, being temporarily blind, color tints...etc. Those are all the one's I've experienced, and not very often.
However, I have a specific Visual Aura. And what makes this concerning is that I don't remember life without it. I see the world in a film, if you imagine the static on a cable channel, thats kind of what the film looks like. And I've had this since I was born.
So anyways we go through all the stuff I've been through and all what has happened, and he's looking interested and tells me the kind of migraines I have, and then asks if I have any specific questions about myself.
I ask him a few, and then I get to my main question which I've been WANTING to know for a while, but I cant find the answer.
"Are migraines fatal?"
His answer:
"In some cases yes, the migraines will cause a VERY increased chance in strokes... and that almost always happens if you have over 7 migraines a month. So not to scare you, but currently you're having what... 3-4 a week? x_x We need to get this under control or yes, this will most likely be fatal."
Mother: "....I didnt want her to know that x_____x"
Me:"........;__________; -stunned-"
HOW DO YOU RESPOND TO THAT XDDDD
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I didnt know how =p but I got meh answer! Imma do a shit load of research on it now.
Also something else I learned:
I've been wondering why I can't really feel pain... Migraines are so bad that you SHOULD be rolling over in pain, crying, or just covering yourself up and trying to sleep. I don't feel much pain. I walked around with a broken foot once and had the doctors claiming it wasn't broken since I didnt feel it much...
When I described to the doctor that I have a headache EVERYDAY... he was interested. He asked how long that's been happening, and I had to say "ever since I could remember."
if you ASK me if I have a headache, I'll think about it and have to say yes. But I've gotten so good at living with it and ignoring it, that I can actually ignore a lot of pain. I guess it's a super power and a curse too xD
Anyways that's an update on my life~
P.S:
All of my friend read my other blog post. A lot of them were like "omg liz D: *hug*" and started talking to me again~ so they do care xD Sheesh even GABE didn't act all "o.o OMG ARE YOU OKAY *shakes me*".... so obviously they knew something was wrong <3
Only got one reaction that criticized me for actually writing that.
You don't have to read it O_o
This is MY life. and MY words. MY story.
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And I tell things how they are then.
