Apparently I scared Gabe XD

Eh
I broke down for one of the first times after all this drama had happened (I had thought it was over)
Spent the night crying for about 15-20 minutes... kinda out of the norm for me.
I'm not about to say what made that happen, just that one of the things WAS aimed at fifi.
I realized, the drama is now on MY side.

And that hurt so much x3
Because, I realized my question WAS answered. I can't go back.
We ARENT friends anymore, maybe acquaintances. I should be happy that hatred isn't directed at me anymore.

I'll leave my arms open, she can come back I guess if she wants.
I don't know her anymore... it's like a foreign person. I'd LIKE to know her, but it's out of my hands now.
Crying helped, I let go... she's not my friend. I can answer these questions now honestly.

Will I let her mess with my emotions again:
No.

Is she still the same fifi?
No.

Is that all that bad?
No, if she's happy it's fine

Is this your fault.
Not that I know of, people change, sometimes it's subtle and mutual... other times it's one sided and harsh

Will you accept her back?
Yea XD I honestly think at this point I'm the one hurting the most... I cant tell though. But I love her so much :P so sure

So I'm done. Over. I sure hope this stays this way (me not being depressed anymore)
It took 15 minutes of breaking down to erase about 7 years of friendship.
I didn't erase it... I guess I'm just not dwelling on it anymore.
It'll be hard to trust someone like that again... she knew everything about me and that ended up being shot back in my face.
I really hope I can trust someone like that again, being that good of best friends is awesome. You practically live for each other.

And to close this post I say to Phylicia:
I'm sorry.

My Brother - the human cannon ball of stupidity

Okay I can't not write about this XD It was just to hilarious.
We brother and mother were standing in my doorway talking to me (I was trying to sleep) and he randomly goes "Okay sleep tight, dont let the skulls and rabid rodents bite" <-- if you know my background I HATE skulls etc. Rabid rodents are cute also. See, usually when he mentions that he gets kicked by my mother or something XD so when she didnt react I said "...Wow you're on a life line, seems mom hasn't killed you yet."
Sooo, they both say goodnight and close the door, the minute the door is closed I hear these huge crashes and banging and high pitched screams, which was my brother flinging himself off the nearby walls and into pictures to make it sound like my mom was killing him. I fell over in laughter, laughing so hard I couldn't breathe and started crying, he actually ended up hurting himself (he's 21 turning 22... doesnt show eh?) and my mother was laughing at how stupid he could be.

It's the ONLY thing that I can think back on and laugh over 15 times so far... still hasn't stopped being funny.

Lolcat? [bible? XD]

Well imma ruin my perfect amount of posts... (it's at 69 D:) and make it 70!
I've been reading my posts and I have to admit, they are pretty emo XD sheesh
I think that's only because I usually type about major SAD or BAD events in my life...
Well soon I'll have awesome stuffles to talk about (I hope...)
Such as:
1. The band trip <3
2. Drumline practice~
3. Diddy getting his internet back ;D
4. Reaching level 99 on RO ;DDD


And then! here is some stuff that will never happen~ (or wont be written about in my blog /gg)
1. Me learning how to fly (aw)
2. Me getting a boyfriend (snickers)
3. Hmm... how about winning a million dollars?
4. Me getting another hamster (T______T)
5. Me actually listening to a david archuleta song (oh fck I just found one I like...)
6. And last of all~ me being perfectly healthy ;D


Actually I just wrote that list to laugh at it... xD ignore it.
I really do want to learn how to fly though.....

OKAY THINGS I WISH WOULD HAPPEN:
1. Learning how to fly
2. Getting a boyfriend (why? pssshhh I'll rant about it later... not a top priority though)
3. Winning a million dollars
4. Getting another small animal
5. NOT listening to david archuleta 6. Become perfectly healthy

Any similarities between those two lists are entirely coincidental.

I'm in a good mood today~ Woooooooooot.
PH3AR THE P0W3R 0F D00M!!!

mk and I'm in a random mood apparently. Sheesh.

!!WARNING: RANT COMING~! ;DDD!!

Bwahaahahhahahaa.... okay wait... I'll just be repeating myself if I explain why getting a boy friend is in my list of eventual wants /shrug..... hmmm..... Okay lazy ass's, go and look it up in my posts for yourselves. Then again there's always the obvious reason. If you're being perverted right about now, RUN AWAY PEDO! RUN D:< *shoots*

I think I'm about done. Woooooot~
-poof-