Apparently I scared Gabe XD

Eh
I broke down for one of the first times after all this drama had happened (I had thought it was over)
Spent the night crying for about 15-20 minutes... kinda out of the norm for me.
I'm not about to say what made that happen, just that one of the things WAS aimed at fifi.
I realized, the drama is now on MY side.

And that hurt so much x3
Because, I realized my question WAS answered. I can't go back.
We ARENT friends anymore, maybe acquaintances. I should be happy that hatred isn't directed at me anymore.

I'll leave my arms open, she can come back I guess if she wants.
I don't know her anymore... it's like a foreign person. I'd LIKE to know her, but it's out of my hands now.
Crying helped, I let go... she's not my friend. I can answer these questions now honestly.

Will I let her mess with my emotions again:
No.

Is she still the same fifi?
No.

Is that all that bad?
No, if she's happy it's fine

Is this your fault.
Not that I know of, people change, sometimes it's subtle and mutual... other times it's one sided and harsh

Will you accept her back?
Yea XD I honestly think at this point I'm the one hurting the most... I cant tell though. But I love her so much :P so sure

So I'm done. Over. I sure hope this stays this way (me not being depressed anymore)
It took 15 minutes of breaking down to erase about 7 years of friendship.
I didn't erase it... I guess I'm just not dwelling on it anymore.
It'll be hard to trust someone like that again... she knew everything about me and that ended up being shot back in my face.
I really hope I can trust someone like that again, being that good of best friends is awesome. You practically live for each other.

And to close this post I say to Phylicia:
I'm sorry.