Nurgh

I feel like you're making me choose a side, and when it comes to my life, there are no sides. You're a big part of my life, but... it's not fair for you to talk to me like that.

I wonder if you realized...

...the entire time you were dating. I was worrying. I was worrying from the start. I didn't want you to get hurt, I didn't want someone to hurt you.

But I also realized that while I love you, I cannot control your life. You're going to date people I despise, you're going to get hurt, you're going to be happy, you're going to be sad. And all I can do is be the rock that you can rely on, the person that you can glee to or cry to. I didn't want to stand in your way or upset you, so I stood back and supported you.

And I expected the same thing back.
I want to talk to my best friend about what makes me happy.
I want to share my life with her.

And I can't.

I can't even describe in words how that makes me feel.