Flaws

People are:
Stupid
Incompetent
Single Minded
Living in either the past, future or present
Judging on first reaction
Finding pleasure in hurting


The last comment (finding pleasure in hurting) includes a fuck load of things such as:
Rape
Harassment
Torture
Insanity
War
Violence
The Putting Down Of Others.

Etc etc.

I broke my thoughts of all people being stupid. And seeing all their flaws. That was recently. (the past year) I finally could see how people were TRYING to act, even if they weren't succeeding. I didnt doubt their intelligence, only doubted their common sense. I think I doubt everything about them now.

People may read this and say "wow she's an arrogant bitch, insulting everyone but her"
I said PEOPLE didnt I?
and I not a person?
I do believe as a person, I am stupid and incompetent.
However, I believe my MIND is not.
Whether or not someone will ever try to understand me,
my mind is my most cherished possession, it is ME.
No one will ever understand me fully, and that hurts.

But.
As many know, I dont believe there is an afterlife of any sort.
Your body is left behind.
But your "soul" (your mind in my opinion) is extinguished, and will cease to exist.
Rather than get into a whole debate about why that is,
I will say this:
Yes it is something you dont want to believe.
It is HARD to believe.

Which is why i cherish my mind, after I "die". I will cease to exist, and the thing I will miss the most, is being able to think.
If asked the question:
"would you rather cease to exist or be stuck with your mind for ETERNITY"
(I've been asked this a lot)
I would have to answer:
"I do not know."

All I know is, my mind is special, because it's one of a kind.
It finds fault in every person.
And accepts only a few.

The only person
I do NOT find fault in,
is Edward.

He is, one of a kind. And no one will ever come close to that level of innocence and intelligence.



So before I insult my friends with this,
yes I do love most of you.
But you annoy the living shit out of me...
I'm trying though... but I'm going to give up pretending I'm something I'm not soon.