Booga Booga?

hmmm... teh blog has slowed down but is NOT forgotten <3

I'm in drumline withdrawl ;o; I miss it... a lot.... *sniff*

and I didn't know alaina had a blogger account *runs in circles*



Got an xbox 360 for xmas~ Been kicking people's asses on halo 3 x3 they all suck, lawl

My brother's are doing okay, Alex is graduating in april :3 he'll be out of school for good! yay! *glomps him* Edward's fine also ^o^

Parents have been.... better... ish... kinda... no not really. fighting hasn't gotten worse though.

I am now officially looking forward to diddy hugs ;-; *huggles him* bestest buddy~

Krissy has contaminated me with her weird/randomness D: RUN AWAY!

Yea... High school honestly still isn't that bad. I love it.
[Finals coming up -sigh-]

Hmmm... Still addicted to RO. May be getting married on it soon due to me trying to help my friend reach 99. He'll be sniper soon~ and I'll be bio (teh pwn) Plus now I'm tanking myself a blacksmith, which means 1 mil and hour of zeny, which means I'm gonna get the items I want ;o horray! [RO is being a btch and not letting us log in currently >:c]


FiFi is still my bestest buddy eber! ;D like that will change~

Dan is going out with Rachel o______o *claps*

Megan... [might?o.o] have a boy friend... we're not sure and can't get the whole story. Don't worry meggy! when school starts up... *cracks knuckles* you shall tell <3

>.>
<.<
I seem to be in neutral territory with all the MYP people. which is weird since we all hated each other last year. I kinda like it, it's just a gigantic friend group now ;o

My grades in school are owning~ /ho

OH! ;D

********Diddy gave me his address********
[bwahahahahahahaha]
I drew/sent him a christmas card xD he loves it apparently.
"Took me 5 minutes looking at it under a bright light to figure out it was drawn"
;-; *happy*

And yea, St. Patricks day parade is canceled for the drumline since last year we had drunks trying to malest us ;D
The new year trip for drumline is going to Nashville TN... that's a fcking 12-14 hour drive in a bus crammed with people. Thanks for kicking us out of the Cherry Blossom parade due to your own mistake washington DC!

That's pretty much it~
Oh and I survived swimming class. It was honestly REALLY fun. O.o and for any guy that reads this and wonders, yes we do talk about you in the locker room <3 /lv

and I'm done... prepare for a rant about finals in T - 1 week

Response:

To Steven:
lawl

Oh Yeah...

Forgot:
info:
Drumline is pretty much over for the year, football team was eliminated from the playoffs. we lost...


Oh!
Gally's still thinking steven will come back online -chokes-
yea right o.o;;
Don't get your hopes up, but I think he's kinda done with the whole online thing with us D:
@_@ please correct me if I'm wrong.

Not Dead Yet

*huggles blog* Sorry for not writing, I can't put what's been happening into words, but I need to write a reminder to myself.

She's your friend too.
Stop over reacting .-. *hits self*
Stop being paranoid...
and stop being over protective.

Sorry gally XD I probably wont be able to do any of those, I always over react and I definitly cant stop being over protective.

I just hope we sort this out ;o; I like the whole "Okay! let's talk!" thing... and it works, but then the next day you kinda forget that and am back to the ">.>.... liz who? HI DASH!"

.... -.-
I dont want to lose this okay?
I really dont think you can grasp exactly how bad I'm feeling XD;;

The blog now lives!

Broken

(I love Amy Lee's voice ^.^)
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone

You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore

(Pretty song <3)

Recents~

We just beat Bethel at their homecoming game XD Oooooo burn.
Another band battle BD it was funny.

It got cold here x.x;;;;

Im currently searching for ideas for a halloween costume for me.

The Religious retreat is tomorrow... Im required to go to get confirmed. Neither of which I honestly WANT to do.
Since I must go, Im taking a video camera. I hope this will help me define what exactly religion is to me. ^^ If I answer those questions, I'll make it into a short film XD

went shopping today ;3
Tons of sales....
Went to the sport store and got some underarmor x_X;;;; cold weather type... it should keep me from freezing my legs/arms during the winter at the games/drum-offs/parades... thankfully they were on sale o-o they're fucking expensive!!!!
Went to Macy's and found some christmas presents for family D: (On sale xD)
And Clinique was having a bonus sale BD *happy*
So all their stuff was on sale, (which hardly ever happens) and also I got like... 10 complimentary items XD *pwned*



Thats mostly it... Oh!
And I got addicted to RO again XDD
Akutabi hit 70 ;o and is slowly going towards 80.
Wasabi is 50 XD *duh duh DUH pwnful little vani!*
And I had to take my crap back from steven Dx Sorry!
Needed it x.x;;;
If thats a problem tell me? XD

It shouldnt be. >_>
you haven't been online *shrugs*

Oh yea :c
If it's not obvious, XD
I like being your friend Steven :P
hopefully we can be that?
No idea...
Anyways it's not much of a problem I guess... you're never online x)
Hope everythings okay! ;D

Fighter

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Oh, ohh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

The hottest songs from Christina Aguilera

Common Sense

As I said I was impatient.
Unfortunatly, I really was today.
Why do people have no common sense? Or is it me?
What obvious, they dont get.
They're slow.... and their way of thinking is illogical.

Something that I can figure out with my common sense, must be explained to them.
Their sense of reality is small.
Money grows out of trees.
Dreams are pointless gaining of items.

You all need to:
Figure out how to find your common sense.
Gain a better sense of the WORLD.
Understand what is REALITY.
Understand money does NOT grow on trees.
Understand that your dreams will not all come true.
and GOD
UNDERSTAND THE FUCKING CONCEPT OF HOW WORK AND MAKING MONEY IS NOT EASY.
Sure you have goals, to gain stuff in life.
What you fail to understand, is how LONG it will take, how stupid it is to throw your money away on status, and how much WORK you will need to do, to get that!
You fail to understand the in between the lines stuff.

Stop looking at the big picture,
and think OUTSIDE THE BOX....
Find out exactly how much it will take.

Lets say you want.... a really expensive status item.
At your current age, if you are in high school,
This is what you must do first:

Either win the lottery at an early age!
OR~

Get good grades in all 4 years of high school
Dont flunk out of a class
gain access to a college
complete all 4 years of college with good grades
Somehow PAY for college
When you've finished paying for your college tuition (news flash, most parents do NOT pay for it all you WILL have a loan)
and you have finished with any other rent and loans.
At which point hopefully you have gotten a job,
Slowly save
try to work yourself up in position in your job
live off very little money for the first year (at least, sometimes for the first 5 or so years)
*THIS IS ALL IF YOU HAVE EVEN GOTTEN A JOB -_-*
If you get married, most likely you will have a debt again, if you have a big wedding.
Slowly save, again.
If you have kids, you will have to save for them,
their food,
their clothes,
their college money,
their funds,
their insurance,
you insurance,
their education.
ETC.

Note: that this only a portion of the crap you have to put up with once you're away from your parents -.-"
And this is based off of what graduates have writen to me and such. ONLY up to the point of the kid thing.

As I was saying,

Your dreams, are valuable, you are ALLOWED to dream. just do not get to into them, because once reality hits.
-most likely-
you will not, have those dreams.

And also,
please...
god...
do NOT...
voice these illogical dreams to me. It pisses me off XD my impatience with the stupidity of people is dropping.

Want to know my dreams?
I want to get accepted into a college,
I dont want to drop out of high school,
I want to get through college,
try to find a job,
have enough money to actually buy food with and live somewhere,
find someone or either adopt when I have enough money to support a child and an okay living area.
I dont want status items.
Money I could care less about, I just hope I have enough to live on.
I dont want a big house, im fine with an apartment, though I would not say no to a small house eventually x.x

And most importantly:
I want to be me.

How Far We've Come

I'm waking up at the start of the end of the world,
but its feeling just like every other morning before,
now i wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone,
the cars are moving like a half a mile an hour if that
and I started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye
can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?

chorus:
but i believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well i guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

i think it turned ten o'clock but i don't really know
then i can't remember caring for an hour or so
started crying and i couldn't stop myself
i started running but there's no where to run to
i sat down on the street and took a look at myself
said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell
say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

i believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well i guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
[How Far We've Come lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you
well its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you

but i believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well i guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

Stress

Im on the breaking point.
Today was hilarious sure,
We dressed plimus (THATS HOW IM SPELLING IT >_>) up as a merMAN, he had to wear girls shorts and we wrapped sparkly stuff around him as a skirt, gave him shell.... things XD like shell bras? dunno. and made his hair poofy and glittered him o_O;;
The zaits was a chipmunk...........
.....
....
...
..
.
*snicker* XD
The chipmunk costume was not complete until Nicole drew freckles on zait's face with eye liner XD

Anyways.
Everything that could have gone wrong HAS gone wrong today.
-I failed 2 tests.
-Im dropping in my grades.
-I lost my gym clothes and was forced to do the mile run even though my IEP says I shouldnt....
-I forgot my math homework
-I somewhat failed a math test
-3D art wasnt that enjoyable
-I was impatient today and annoyed at everyone else's stupidity
-I think I pissed off gally by mistake (sorry x.x)
-My mother and father dragged me along on stupid errands that lasted for 2 hours
-I lost the format paper for my essay
-I printed my essay on the last printer paper before realizing it was under the word count needed
-When I was about to get 1 relaxed moment the doorbell rung
-My Peer forgot to fill out the 2nd Draft Paper that I need for my grade
-I ate the last muffin T_T
-German test is tomorrow
-Math test is tomorrow
-3 projects due over the weekend that we randomly learned about today

Thats. Only. The. Big. Things.
Im so stressed I'm shaking.
This is NOT good.
And happy me said yesterday that omg! I havent been depressed in days!
I HAVENT BEEN THIS STRESSED IN YEARS.

God.
Gally,
Give me your fricken advice on stress free days.
You did you project on it...
I NEED IT.

XDDDD

Mdiddy says: (4:58:11 PM)
I need to take a shower soon : (
Lizz: ... 7/~ . 225/1000 says: (4:58:16 PM)
same =/
Mdiddy says: (4:58:17 PM)
I'm all covered in blood : (
Lizz: ... 7/~ . 225/1000 says: (4:58:22 PM)
why? o.o
Mdiddy says: (4:59:02 PM)
David came over, and we started playing GH2, and I was hardcore rocking so bad that I got a nosebleed, and then that made me laugh, so I started laughing, and got blood everywhere, and David stared in horror : (
Mdiddy says: (4:59:52 PM)
*delivers the news to viewers like you* : (
Lizz: ... 7/~ . 225/1000 says: (5:00:24 PM)
WHY DID YOU LAUGH WHEN YOUR NOSE WAS BLEEDING XDDD
Lizz: ... 7/~ . 225/1000 says: (5:00:32 PM)
sorry thats a hilarious mental image :P
Mdiddy says: (5:00:46 PM)
'Cause it was funny XD
Mdiddy says: (5:01:15 PM)
David didn't understand, though. He just saw me weilding a guitar and laughing with blood draining out of my face : (

:B d00d 2day waz a\/\/s0me

^---^ *glomp* OKAY!

Today, I missed school, the marching band went to like 3-4 schools and played the entire day... And we went back to the jr. high school. And major problem, I realized that Garrett was in the school XD (no duh me -smacks self-) So I reaalllyyy tryed not to look for him *cough*.... and I found him XD finally. and d00d o.o *glomps garrett* I missed you jerk XD but w.e, the smart self I am kinda ignored him. -.-" go me. ANYWAYS, I saw Min-Jung(sp?), beckah, laurie, and kayla! <33333

Thheeennn~ We went and participated in a crappy parade celebrating homecoming, there was a HUGE (huge huge huge huge fcking huuuggeee o.o) Bonfire! and then, I helped Alex, Meg, and Sara buy a senior :P WE BOUGHT THE IMPROVE CLUB GUY! GO US XD HE MUST DO OUR BIDDING TOMORROW! (well I didnt really buy him but still XD)
Anyways, The drumline bought Plimus(sp?) and Zaits XD I'll explain about what we make them do tomorrow.

The best part of the day was at practice before the parade, where some jack ass left his car in the middle of the parking lot, so the bass line had to walk around it. In otherwords, it made us sound like shit. So Kyle goes,
"I dont care if it's a car or a tornado that may suck you up into the sky and you might never come down, I DONT WANT YOU SOUNDING LIKE SHIT"
Which sounded like Mr. Jones...
and plimus(sp?) pointed that out XD So kyle said:
"I did not say nuclear explosion, I said meeny tornado!"
(apparently mr jones says nuclear explosion a lot)

I HAD TO KEEP MYSELF FROM LAUGHING MY HEAD OFF XDD
the way he said meeny was hilarious :3
x))))

go me xD in finding something totally funny in nothing.

Anyways one last note,
Johnny was being weird again XD and started conducting with his drum major staff XD and was dancing and twirling it around, and Rachel noticed that, and started laughing, which brought us all the notice it XD Funniest thing evar~

I lied, ONE LAST OTHER NOTE:
We locked Plimus(sp?) in a cage o.o;;
One of the instrument cages in the back room, it took them like, 5-10 minutes to get him in the cage xD then we got the door stuck XDDD


I love you guys~! Im currently in pain, tired, and I'm losing diddy time talking on my blog >_>
SUCKS TO BE ALL OF YOU~

Over and out <333

Oh Shitzor!

I havent posted much! So recent updates in my LIFE (ahahahaha I have a life!)

1. I dislocated my wrist
2. I talked to garrett again o.o
3. I missed a whole day of school for drumline stuff
4. I got a good grade on a math test
5. I uhm... bought a senior (XDDDD)
6. I've gotten addicted to Halo Live.
7. I haven't been majorly depressed in DAYS :3
8. THE NOT BEING DEPRESSED THING IS AWESOME T_T
9. This has been a fcking awesome week.
10. Can't think of much~! DESCRIPTION OF TODAY NEXT~!!!!

End of the bad festivals (Drum-offs)

Today marked the end of the band festivals!
Which means, sadly...
All seniors, will now... never... have a band festival with the USC band ;=;
*claps* ;===; We'll miss yooouuu.

Anyways it was so much fun XD
We were in a freakin awesome mood... (we as in... the drumline *duh*)
Kish taught us less informed drummers what superman and strawberry shortcake means -.-"
Then...
a band played the song superman.
Which made us all laugh hysterically. o_o;;
It was a bit sad. and no, I will NOT define those terms.

Intermission... blah blah,
We lined up and warmed up...
Pinscer and Colleen were not there so the bass drums were down to 4 and the tenors down to 1.
(COLLEEN I HOPE YOU'RE OKAY AND CAN GET BACK WITH US SOON! X_x We all know about the car accident -sob-)
Anyways, we had about 2 more bands in front of us before we could go...
And we could not talk at ALL...
so Johnny makes this HUGE inspirational speech which, ironically made us all laugh XDD
then we lined up on the hill.... and had to stay there standing still and quiet for over 30 minutes ._. (or so it felt like... it was a REALLY long time.)
While...
Johnny was making laps around us o_o clapping our hands and shouting inspirational stuff... the ENTIRE time.
And thats impressive if you know the size of our marching band...
So of course we all thought he was on crack...
until he slide the one lap...
and we all concluded he was drunk ^^;; Go Johnny! (he's fine... he wasnt drunk XD)

So blah blah, we go...
then o_O Some guest band from... WV?......
goes...
and they're... fucking professional o_O It was like robots.
And the dancers...
were all the same height...
around the same weight....
same exact hair cut....
same hair color....
same makeup...
Talk. about. losing. any. individuality. you. had. left.

ANYHOO!

The band festival was fcking awesome XD
To sum it up...
Oh and Mr. Jones was not there (cough... the reason why it was awesome... cough...)

--------

To my bass drum circle of love~
I love you guyyysss XD
Cant wait to see you guys at K-wood Fright Night (We got free tickets WOOT WOOT)
KEEP IT UP!

Over and out- *ba-boom*

Part 2 of the Convo

Mdiddy says: (7:26:41 PM)
Hey ice? : (

Eric says: (7:27:00 PM)
hmmmm?

Mdiddy says: (7:27:34 PM)
Are.. are you "blood"? : (

Eric says: (7:27:59 PM)
I throw it up =(

Mdiddy says: (7:28:04 PM)
Just checking ;=;

Mdiddy says: (7:28:12 PM)
I don't want to see bloods not be throwing it up : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:28:18 PM)
o_O;;;;;

Mdiddy says: (7:28:18 PM)
Might have to pop a cap or two : (

Eric says: (7:28:20 PM)
XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:28:29 PM)
Okay I went from confused to very confused

Mdiddy says: (7:29:13 PM)
Jzingigty klzamzabah, uhanto aeslata quoh? : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:29:36 PM)
;=; explain please

Mdiddy says: (7:29:49 PM)
Now you're not just confused, you're also in a foreign land : (

Eric says: (7:29:55 PM)
XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:30:07 PM)
*starts speaking the little german I know to balance it out* ;=;

Mdiddy says: (7:30:19 PM)
German don't work in Diddy City B|

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:30:31 PM)
*gets shot* o_o;;

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:30:37 PM)
yer city is violent D:

Mdiddy says: (7:30:46 PM)
Ice is a gang leader : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:30:54 PM)
>.>

Mdiddy says: (7:30:55 PM)
The D-town trickstas : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:31:08 PM)
*wind breaks ice in half*

Mdiddy says: (7:31:16 PM)
What? XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:31:19 PM)
the gang lives no more ;=;

Mdiddy says: (7:31:35 PM)
Oh, I thought you meant like.. wind broke a piece of ice XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:31:39 PM)
oh XD

Mdiddy says: (7:31:49 PM)
I capitalize the I : (

Eric says: (7:31:51 PM)
I did too

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:31:53 PM)
>.>

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:31:56 PM)
*fails*

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:32:01 PM)
-siiiggghhh- >_>

Mdiddy says: (7:32:01 PM)
Sure do : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:32:05 PM)
jerk XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:32:23 PM)
fine I'll capitalize the I next time >_>

Mdiddy says: (7:33:02 PM)
That's right >: D

Mdiddy says: (7:33:45 PM)
I bet from now on, you'll keep typing "ice" and then go back and say "Damn, forgot to caps it >:/" and have to backspace and retype >: D

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:34:14 PM)
........

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:34:23 PM)
*kicks you into rattle city*

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:34:28 PM)
>: D

Mdiddy says: (7:34:46 PM)
Nice little ghost town you got here. Almost saw someone : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:34:52 PM)
oh thats mean XD

Mdiddy says: (7:35:12 PM)
*moves in* : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:35:17 PM)
*hugs* ;=;

Mdiddy says: (7:35:24 PM)
*hug* XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:35:27 PM)
you live in a ghost town XD

Mdiddy says: (7:35:44 PM)
You don't live in your own town? : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:35:54 PM)
*shifty eyes*

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:35:56 PM)
maaaybe ;=;

Mdiddy says: (7:36:06 PM)
*moves into your house* : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:36:21 PM)
XD yay!

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:36:42 PM)
my house consists of a cardboard box ;D welcome!

Mdiddy says: (7:37:10 PM)
I call box : ( *kicks you out*

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:37:20 PM)
*twitches on the road*

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:37:26 PM)
*gets run over by a ghost truck*

Mdiddy says: (7:38:27 PM)
Gh-gh-gh-gh-GHOST TRUCK! GHOOOOST TRUCK! DUNANA! DU! DU! DUNANANANAN! DUNANA! GHOOOO-O-OOOOO-O-OOOOOOOOST!! ... truck XO

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:38:42 PM)
XD *truck runs away*

Mdiddy says: (7:38:50 PM)
: (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:39:03 PM)
;-;

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:39:20 PM)
I so glad you're sad that the truck ran away XD

Mdiddy says: (7:39:27 PM)
>: (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:39:35 PM)
*peels self off of the road* XDD

Mdiddy says: (7:40:10 PM)
Where's our friendly chunk of frozen water? : (

Eric says: (7:40:11 PM)
what? XD

Mdiddy says: (7:40:14 PM)
ICE :C

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:40:19 PM)
XD

Eric says: (7:40:19 PM)
i so glad you sad truck go away!

Mdiddy says: (7:40:23 PM)
XDDD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:40:27 PM)
wait what XD

Mdiddy says: (7:40:27 PM)
Eskimo talk XD

Eric says: (7:40:30 PM)
XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:40:31 PM)
yeaaa XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:41:04 PM)
mk Imma go now XD Im tired

Mdiddy says: (7:41:12 PM)
For the night? : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:41:15 PM)
yea ;=;

Mdiddy says: (7:41:18 PM)
<: (

Mdiddy says: (7:41:22 PM)
Be on tomorrow, or... ? :c

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:41:29 PM)
I should have been off the computer oh say.... 40 minutes ago?

Eric says: (7:41:30 PM)
later Rattleeee

Mdiddy says: (7:41:33 PM)
XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:41:35 PM)
I should be online tomorrow :333

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:41:39 PM)
Bye mummy XD

Mdiddy says: (7:41:40 PM)
Okay. Goodnight Xd *hug*

Mdiddy says: (7:41:42 PM)
*XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 202/1000 says: (7:41:45 PM)
bye diddy XD *hugs*

((End))

Best Convo with Diddy and Mummy (Eric)

((Beware, this will be a LONG post))

Mdiddy says: (6:23:00 PM)
Mahatma Gandhi's #21 on a list of alltime greatest heroes in movies. I don't think he should be on it. He's an actual person XD

Eric says: (6:23:49 PM)
ya, Gandhi shouldnt be in it

Mdiddy says: (6:24:20 PM)
Documentaries shouldn't count. As cool as he is, a list of movie heroes should only be movie heroes : (

Eric says: (6:25:11 PM)
ya XD and if its based off a book or something like Star Wars is ( I bet Luke Skywalker is somewhere on that list) they should be someone that was made into a really popular movie too =/

Eric says: (6:25:37 PM)
like Gandalf Id count over Gandhi, just cause LOTR movies were super succesful =/

Eric says: (6:25:46 PM)
and hes fictional

Mdiddy says: (6:25:54 PM)
Luke's not on the list, but Han Solo and Obi Wan were XD

Eric says: (6:26:02 PM)
XD yay

Eric says: (6:26:15 PM)
I dont like Star Wars much XD

Mdiddy says: (6:26:21 PM)
Me neither XD

Mdiddy says: (6:26:45 PM)
I don't really like Star Trek at all, and don't see how it could have a huge nerd fanbase XD

Mdiddy says: (6:27:11 PM)
At least Starwars has lightsaber duels. Star Trek just has cheap lazer animations : (

Eric says: (6:27:35 PM)
XD I dunno, but it has a a huge one

Eric says: (6:27:55 PM)
maybe cause the bad guys in it are awesome and its just...got more adventures cause they change every episode?

Mdiddy says: (6:28:18 PM)
Some people just love sci-fi XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:28:26 PM)
ew sci-fi XD

Eric says: (6:29:18 PM)
XD you dont like it?

Mdiddy says: (6:29:51 PM)
Rattle loves sci-fi : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:29:58 PM)
>___>;;

Mdiddy says: (6:30:05 PM)
Her dream is to command a star cruiser one day : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:30:11 PM)
Ew XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:30:20 PM)
I'd crash it and die XD

Eric says: (6:30:51 PM)
XD sci-fi can be cool sometimes

Mdiddy says: (6:30:52 PM)
I don't really like Starwars, but if I had one of those Forestwalkers that scared all the little Ewoks, I'd ride it around town XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:30:59 PM)
sometimes ;o

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:31:04 PM)
brb x.x im hungry

Eric says: (6:31:11 PM)
okay

Eric says: (6:31:19 PM)
forestwalkers are cool XD what are they called for real?

Mdiddy says: (6:31:34 PM)
Forgot XD

Eric says: (6:32:06 PM)
XD

Eric says: (6:32:12 PM)
its just like random letters and numbers I think XD

Eric says: (6:32:20 PM)
like RMK-63

Mdiddy says: (6:32:51 PM)
C3PO : (

Eric says: (6:33:13 PM)
XDDD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:37:15 PM)
>: (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:37:24 PM)
I cant eat soup with my left hand XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:37:43 PM)
no spoon mouth coordination ._.

Mdiddy says: (6:38:07 PM)
*holds a spoon of soup up to your mouth* : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:38:11 PM)
>_>;;

Eric says: (6:38:12 PM)
XD I cant either, Im really bad at it

Mdiddy says: (6:38:24 PM)
Open >:C

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:38:35 PM)
*shakes head* >_>

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:38:43 PM)
>__>;;

Mdiddy says: (6:38:48 PM)
Rattle Star, you open your mouth this INSTANT >:C

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:38:52 PM)
o_o

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:38:55 PM)
*snorts* XD

Mdiddy says: (6:39:05 PM)
Fine. Starve : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:39:10 PM)
wah XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:39:15 PM)
I feel like a baby now XD

Mdiddy says: (6:39:26 PM)
Would YOU like some soup, ICEBERG? >: (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:39:30 PM)
XDD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:39:35 PM)
*jumps off a cliff*

Mdiddy says: (6:39:48 PM)
*catches you* >: (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:39:50 PM)
;=;

Mdiddy says: (6:39:58 PM)
There will be no cliff-jumping while I'm the babysitter >: (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:40:04 PM)
>___>;;;

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:40:11 PM)
*pours soup on you* ;=;

Eric says: (6:40:17 PM)
XD

Mdiddy says: (6:40:21 PM)
Yum-yum : ( *licks it off*

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:40:22 PM)
Diddy smells like chicken!

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:40:48 PM)
ew D: that was my soup!

Mdiddy says: (6:41:12 PM)
Well now it's mine >: (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:41:19 PM)
fine ;-;

Eric says: (6:44:52 PM)
XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:45:02 PM)
weirdo ;=;

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:45:10 PM)
*starves*

Mdiddy says: (6:45:21 PM)
You had your chance : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:45:32 PM)
*dies*

Mdiddy says: (6:46:38 PM)
*squeezes his shirt into a bowl*

Mdiddy says: (6:46:40 PM)
Drink up : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:46:49 PM)
o_o

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:46:53 PM)
*twitch*

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:47:25 PM)
you know..... if you didnt already know that I had poured soup on you... that sounds really weird XD

Mdiddy says: (6:47:36 PM)
XDDDDD

Mdiddy says: (6:47:46 PM)
Wait, when'd you pour soup on me? : o

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:48:08 PM)
right before you licked it off?

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:48:13 PM)
o_o *points up*

Mdiddy says: (6:48:35 PM)
.. BD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:48:38 PM)
XD

Mdiddy says: (6:49:58 PM)
My dad was using my new hair stuff that my aunt bought for me : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:50:05 PM)
o_o

Eric says: (6:50:07 PM)
=( does he look bad with it?

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:50:14 PM)
hide it! D:

Mdiddy says: (6:50:21 PM)
He has shitty gray-patched 1-inch hair XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:50:52 PM)
XDD

Mdiddy says: (6:51:06 PM)
I probably won't be able to get any more when it's gone, so I want to use as much as I can myself and not have him waste it on his hair that nothing could help : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:51:18 PM)
XDDD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:51:21 PM)
hide it ;-;

Mdiddy says: (6:51:28 PM)
I did, but he looks for stuff >:/

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:51:32 PM)
x_X

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:51:37 PM)
hide it in a different room?

Mdiddy says: (6:51:43 PM)
*does* : (

Eric says: (6:51:47 PM)
=(

Eric says: (6:51:53 PM)
why does his hair lok bad? XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:52:01 PM)
look* : (

Mdiddy says: (6:52:38 PM)
He has a really uncombed Caesar-style haircut, and it has random patches of grayness, and it's short and bristley XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:52:44 PM)
XD

Eric says: (6:54:20 PM)
XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:54:36 PM)
o_O my fingers randomly stopped tingling

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:54:40 PM)
I think thats good

Eric says: (6:54:45 PM)
that issss

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:54:50 PM)
but now my wrist is killing -.-

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:54:54 PM)
@____@;;

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:54:59 PM)
Can I just chop my hand off?

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:55:58 PM)
:/

Mdiddy says: (6:56:27 PM)
You need a shiatsu massage : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:56:42 PM)
a what massage? o_o

Mdiddy says: (6:56:54 PM)
Shiatsu : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:57:06 PM)
whats that? ;o

Mdiddy says: (6:57:16 PM)
Ancient Japanese massage technique : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:57:21 PM)
oh xD

Mdiddy says: (6:57:24 PM)
Pretty famous. Thought you'd know it XD

Mdiddy says: (6:57:35 PM)
You could get a Swedish massage too : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:57:54 PM)
Sweeedddiiiissshhhh XD

Mdiddy says: (6:58:06 PM)
I wish I had some swiss emmentel XD

Mdiddy says: (6:58:23 PM)
*emmental : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (6:58:31 PM)
whats that ;-;

Eric says: (6:58:31 PM)
emmental?

Mdiddy says: (6:58:38 PM)
Swiss cheese : (

Mdiddy says: (6:58:45 PM)
The white kind with holes in it XD

Eric says: (6:58:47 PM)
XD

Mdiddy says: (6:59:08 PM)
Some kinds of cheeses are nasty, but some kinds are really good XD

Mdiddy says: (7:00:05 PM)
If cows could lactate already-made swiss cheese, I would bite off their utters and plunge my hand in to pull it out in globs : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:00:20 PM)
o___o

Eric says: (7:00:31 PM)
XDDDD

Eric says: (7:00:34 PM)
I love cheese =(

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:00:34 PM)
thats a creepy image XD

Eric says: (7:00:39 PM)
only good cheese though

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:02:08 PM)
XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:02:22 PM)
I copied and pasted the cow thingy and sent it to gally XD

Mdiddy says: (7:02:27 PM)
XD

Mdiddy says: (7:02:32 PM)
Seriously though, I would : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:02:37 PM)
and it made her scream EW and twitch multiple times XD

Mdiddy says: (7:02:42 PM)
.. >: (

Mdiddy says: (7:03:02 PM)
I'm making cheap TV-dinner potroast. I love low-quality meat XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:03:15 PM)
XD ew

Eric says: (7:03:18 PM)
over good meat?

Mdiddy says: (7:03:21 PM)
I've had this before, and the beef is so low quality that it tastes like clams. But I love clams XD

Mdiddy says: (7:03:26 PM)
Depends : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:03:30 PM)
thats a bit concerning XDD

Mdiddy says: (7:03:55 PM)
I don't know if they just use shitty cows, or if they process it badly, but it's weird tasting XD

Eric says: (7:04:54 PM)
XD

Eric says: (7:04:57 PM)
I love clams too XD

Mdiddy says: (7:07:07 PM)
Then I shouted out, "FREE THE EXPO '67!" And they stepped on my hair, then they told me I was fat \:c/

Eric says: (7:07:20 PM)
XDDD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:07:27 PM)
wait---what? o_o

Mdiddy says: (7:08:23 PM)
Purple Toupee, yahmean? : (

Eric says: (7:09:16 PM)
ya XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:10:08 PM)
........

Mdiddy says: (7:10:28 PM)
Damn. I'm pondering wether or not I should spend my inherited $120 on fancy cheeses : (

Eric says: (7:10:50 PM)
XD

Eric says: (7:10:58 PM)
you so should

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:11:14 PM)
XDD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:11:32 PM)
you inherited 120$? o_O;;

Mdiddy says: (7:12:08 PM)
My grandma gave me $20, and my uncle gave me $100 : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:12:14 PM)
oh!

Mdiddy says: (7:12:53 PM)
I need to find out how much cheeses cost XD

Mdiddy says: (7:13:02 PM)
If I bought cheeses, I wouldn't want my dad to eat them : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:13:14 PM)
tie him to a tree =(

Mdiddy says: (7:13:22 PM)
"= (" XD

Mdiddy says: (7:13:29 PM)
Iceberg jr. : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:13:30 PM)
>_>

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:13:32 PM)
O_O

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:13:35 PM)
*shoots self*

Mdiddy says: (7:13:48 PM)
That was a compliment. Learn some respect >: (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:14:21 PM)
I have plenty of respect for myself D:

Mdiddy says: (7:14:42 PM)
No you don't. Can't even fix your own hand >: (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:15:09 PM)
Not when I dont know whats wrong with it ;-; it wont talk

Mdiddy says: (7:15:35 PM)
Looking at this cheese website, I really want to blow my money on it XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:15:46 PM)
uh oh XD

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:16:00 PM)
just dont get too many at once XD they go bad sometimes

Mdiddy says: (7:16:22 PM)
Either of you know the exchange rate between the US Dollar and British Pounds Sterling? : (

Lizz: Diddy is at the 1/5th mark! ;o // 2 . 201/1000 says: (7:16:34 PM)
XDDD

Eric says: (7:16:37 PM)
british pounds are about two times as much as the US dollar =/

Mdiddy says: (7:16:42 PM)
Yay XD

Mdiddy says: (7:23:06 PM)
I throw away the TV-dinner after I eat the beef and mashed potatos 'cause everything else sucks : (

To answer a few questions...

Q: Why do you like black so much?

A: I love how it looks and it's definition, the absence of color.

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Q: How come you write so much?

A: The blog somehow helps me relieve stress/ too much emotion.

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More to come XD

Huggles ;=;

DIDDY HUG ;=;
I got 3 diddy hugs!
Yaaayyy ;====;
*hugs him* ^.^

My day just got better XD

Hidden Personalities/Secret

Imma say something here that I havent ever told ANYONE ^.^ because these words mean more than what life is right now at this minute.

Since I can remember, I spent hours under the dining room table at my old house.
.crying.
Cry baby? No.
I can see meaning behind peoples words that even sometimes they cant.
I know what people are feeling sometimes that THEY dont know yet.

So when I was younger, very young. And my parents yelled at me,
Instead of thinking "oh no, im in trouble"
I saw the difference.
My brother got the "you're in trouble" scream
and for some reason,
the one I got was different, it was really confusing
The tone of voice and the way they look at me is just... different...
and I didnt understand it, I thought I was bad or something. So I cryed a lot wondering what I had done.

So I started analyzing what people do, how they act.
Im very good at figuring out people now.
And even at a young age, I noticed differences.
I was maybe 4 or 5.
and I was already having doubts
about what their definition of "love" is.
and if it differed from mine.

The times I would cry under than table, curled up against one of the legs...
Was when I started to realize, exactly what was different.
And my mind wouldnt let me acknowledge it.
My parents... they have to love me ^^ it's my parents.
and its impossible to stay mad for long.
I've always trusted people, a lot.
And given them multiple chances, and my family members...
I think...
have gotten too many chances.

I want to get this idea out of my head... I want to believe that they love me. I know it's childish to not think so. but I just cant. my mind is driving me crazy. No matter how many times I tell myself... "they love me... they love me" It wont work. Every year is helping me doubt. But it'll leave right? ^^ right?.... This is stupid. I have GOT to stop thinking like this. It's how it's suppossed to work, Im their child, they love me ^^. So yesh. Stop thinking like that. *kicks self*

-----
Still even now, at my age...
Im analyzing people's reactions to emotional trauma, loss, happiness, etc.
And people are NOT predictable. I can tell you that.
Because, every person has 2 personalities. 1 that they show.
and 1 that they hide.
Thats the case almost always.

I can find patterns...
and start to understand the person...
give advice depending on what THEY would do.
Not what *I* think they should do.
-----

This is stupid '-'
Anyone that reads this will think "she has problems"
And I do XD
But I acknowledge that...
I just dont know what to do.

Breaking

42/60.
Math test... geometry ^^
I went from being able to ace math without even thinking about it.
To all of a sudden having a TON of trouble with it.
And god im trying. SO hard...
But the last test... which brought my grade down to almost a D... I think I need help.
So after pondering this for the rest of the school day,
I decided... that yes, I do need help. And I will try to get a tutor on tuesdays and thursdays before drumline.
Right?
Easy?
NOT.
I go home, and tell my mom my score, and that I want a tutor.
*heh heh*
Bad idea, next time I'll just fail in silence.
To cut to the chase she yelled at me for being incompetident (sp?) and not trying hard enough.
Said I dont need a tutor. I just need to try HARDER.
And she called my teacher, who *coughTHANKSMRS.WATTScough* gave her the link to this homework help site.
Which at this point is STILL loading (not working -.-)

So, I sigh and try to load the homework help site... one of the tutorial videos loads... so I click that and start watching it.
When my mother comes into the room and starts talking (wtf?)
So Here is the conversation.

me: ... leave please....
mom: one minute *russle russle*
me: OUT OF MY ROOM PLEASE X_X IM TRYING TO FIGURE THIS STUPID THING OUT
mom: well maybe I should just kick you off your internet! It doesnt seem to be helping!!
me: Then I would fail.... (the homework help is online)

Note I edited her ramblings a bit... -.-
Can it get worse?
(actually that part wasnt that bad)
OH HELL YES.
Mother. you. are. a. flaming. bitch.

After the "me: Then I would fail.... (the homework help is online)"
She responded:
"mom: seems like you're doing that on your own"

-----

then she leaves the room.
Im sitting there...
Thinking
"she did NOT just go there"
and.
I.
have.
NEVER.
been.
so.
mad.
in.
my.
fucking.
life.

heh heh
you BITCH.

^^

So, I wasnt that close to cracking yet.
Until my dad came in :3 at which point I had finished the first video and was trying to load the second.
Along with talking to Diddy while it loaded.
And he comes into the room... (MY ROOM -.-)
And goes "hi ^^"
me: -.- hi
him: o_O
me: get out please
him: thats rude
me: its my room and Im trying to learn here
him: learn what
me: math...
him: by IMing? what bs
me: o_o.......
me: LOOK AT THE LOVELY LITTLE LOADING THINGY
him: IMING ISN'T MATH
me: GET OUT OF MY FUCKING ROOM
(note I never swear to them XD)
him: *slams door and talks to my mother*
me: *grabs head with hands and slams head into desk*

At this point I broke down crying for a good 5 minutes ^^
Thanks for being inconsiderate bastards.
The video... still hasnt loaded.
Screw this.

----

I. can. not. believe. you.
1. you come into my room all the time without even knocking, and I do a favor and never lock my door as you ask.
2. you come into the BATHROOM all the time without even fucking knocking.
3. you are inconsiderate
4. even though you deny it, you so want me to be like my fucking brother who was in honor classes and got straight A's easily.
5. you dont try to understand
6. you bitch on and on
7. you fuc--- (I will not finish that...)
8. I come and tell you about something that is NEW to me (aka failing a class) and you... you....
9. I tell you I need a tutor (I have had tutors before and they REALLY help) and you dont listen.

Bastards.
I dont even think you know how angry I am.
I've NEVER been like this.
And I want to cry ^^ which isnt new
Hello hell again. It's deja vu!
except,
unlike years ago...
When I crack, its worse.
Instead of crying.
Im personally ripping myself up.
Slowly.... but surely
Each time I crack...
my shell doesnt mend
and It's easier for me to lose it.
you. are. helping. my. death.

Five for Fighting - 100 Years

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you’re on your way
Every day's a new day...
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

We Takin' Over

[Khaled:]
We the best
We takin' over
Listennn!

[T.I.:]
Aye, aye
Started in Atlanta, then I spread out wit' it
South Carolina, Alabama, Mississippi
On to North Carolina, Phildelphia, and Virginia
From down in Miami where it warm in the winter
On up to Minnesota where it storm in the winter
Jacksonville, Tallahassee, Memphis, Tenn. holla at me
Me in H-Town, Southside, Cloverland daddy
I'm the man out in Dallas, better ask Khaled
Kept me out in Cali with my eyes open barely
Blowin' and spinnin', goin' down Bennett
Drop six-fo', three-wheel then switch it
Red light stop, make it drop for the bitches
Got a glock fo'-fifth, blow your head off wit' it
Anything you hear that I said, I meant it
Came got the crown then sped off it wit' it
Say you need bricks, I said I'd get it

[Akon:]
If you want to, we can supply you
Got enough work, to feed the whole town
They won't shoot you, unless you try to
Come around and try to stomp on our ground
'Cause we takin' over, one city at a time
Said we takin' over, one city at a time
Said we takin' over, one city at a time
Said we takin' over, one city at a time

[Rick Ross:]
Triple C, Black Flag
We rich, yeah

[Khaled:]
Listennn!

[Rick Ross:]
Boss, Is what I does
i get money er'day, er'day i does.
That Benz, is how I ride
Black flag on the left, two hoes and ride
You better, move! Ay County of Dade
Get shot up like Shyne, that's on my neck
I'm Big like Diddy
Damn it, I'm wit' it
Khaled we did it, Biggie of my city
Please no fitted, f**k it, I'm too pretty
The rappers can get brain, stupid, I'm silly
Money that come, runnin' like water
Mami so hot, damn it, she gorgeous
Miami on fire, you better be, cautious
Might get shot on the porch of your fortress
Now they see that you know I'm from Port City
I run in 'cause Rick Ross is boss shit

[Akon:]
'Cause we takin' over, one city at a time
Said we takin' over, one city at a time
[We Taking Over lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Said we takin' over, one city at a time
Said we takin' over, one city at a time

[Fat Joe:]
Cribs Mania
Khaled!
BX, TS nigga

[Khaled:]
Listennn!

[Fat Joe:]
Brrrat, when you see Crack, better duck
like the mac gotta ease past, nigga what
Shit, I don't give f**k, I run these streets
Y'all talk that shit, I want that beef
I'ma tell you like a g told me
They'll come back quick if a nigga O.D
Cash Rule Everything Around Me
I'm YSL, Versace
You could see me in that Porsche GT
Comin' down Sunset, sittin' on D's
Feelin' like 'Pac, All Eyez On Me
Fresh bandana and I'm blowin' mad trees
Nigga please, I spit crack every verse a ki
Some say Khaled, some say KHALEED
Twelve years down and I'm finally free, crack!

[Akon:]
If you want to, we can supply you
Got enough work, to feed the whole town
They won't shoot you, unless you try to
Come around and try to stomp on our ground
'Cause we takin' over, one city at a time
Said we takin' over, one city at a time
Said we takin' over, one city at a time
Said we takin' over, one city at a time

[Khaled:]
Listennn!

[Birdman:]
Birdman daddy, I'm number one
Nigga came at me wrong so we got him done
F**kin' with the fam', I'ma give him some
Spent that co'ner, he didn't run
Sunday had a whole church singin' a song
"Why'd they have to send my baby home?"
F**kin' with some nigga, that paper long
Been a g in the game now my son on the throne

[Lil Wayne:]
I am the beast
Feed me rappers or feed me beats
I'm untamed, I need a leash
I'm insane, I need a shrink
I love brain, I need a leech
Why complain on easy streets?
I don't even talk, I let the Visa speak
and, I like my sprite easter pink
And my wrist special par but the mule is cooler
I have more jewels than your jeweler
Touch, and I will bust your medulla
That's a bullet hole, it is not a tumor
Red light red light stop your rumors
I stay on track like a box of Pumas
Now just r-r-rock with Junior
I am the little big Kahuna, ya'dig.

[Akon:]
'Cause we takin' over, one city at a time

Yesterday...

There is NO possible way to describe yesterday. It involved:
Laughing for over 2 hours,
Dementor,
Caspor,
the creating of Caspors house,
and dementors fuzzy pink room...
Bob's exchange of cell numbers with gally
Them talking...
And bobs cell...ring...tone...
*rolls over laughing*

And thats all about yesterday XD

Elementary School

"* says: (9:59:33 PM)
Lizz Elementary : (
* says: (9:59:39 PM)
Population: Square : ("

*sigh* No one =/

Im sad.
I dont think anyone will ever actually understand me XD
The person that will always be closest,
is my brother.
^.^

And no one can beat that. Because no matter what you do, you will NEVER know me as long as he has.

But I wonder,
can someone actually understand me?
Is there really someone that I can just say ANYTHING to,
and they understand what I mean.
And what I really mean...
not just what im saying.
I really want someone...
that I dont have to have my shell up around.

I love my friends.
and my family.

But I dont think,
that anyone will ever know me as well
as I know myself.
I just hope someone comes close.
And that they never go away.

I guess Im kind of interesting.
I love figuring out how things affect people.
And Im very good at knowing what people are feeling
even before THEY know.
I can easily guess what people are talking about,
or if they have something to say.
Im at least observant that way.

Then here I am...
No ones seemed to guess correctly yet.
And until that comes,
I guess I'll be watching how other people think.
And learning more.

Want a hint?
my dream~
Is to find someone,
where I can just sit in his lap,
in silence,
and he understands.
*claps for myself*
go me for impossible dreams;;;
I've yet to see ANYONE with that.
or anyone married to that.
or anyone who has come across that.

So maybe I should keep my expectations down.
And let people shine through their personalities.
Or how they think,
Or maybe,
just even if their nice.

On the note of guys >___>;;

TO ALL OF YOU:
you should NEVER, let a relationship end so badly, that you give up.
Give up in ever, looking again.
there is someone for you you just gotta look.
denial is not bad, its a learning experience.
getting hurt is part of life, get back up...
ask someone you like, you never know :3
unless the girl is a jackass, she wont mind guys asking. So just try XD
Nothing annoys us more than someone who is an "50/50" guy.
As an example,
A guy that asks a girl to all the dances, and even talks about her as a gf XD
Make up your mind,
Make it official, or say its better to be friends.
Another thing, many girls wont go out with a friend.
We value our friendships to much to put them at risk with a relationship.

Heh... and this comes from me -.- run away now and dont take that advice since I have NO idea if it'll work for you. But it IS just common sense. you just have to take the time to realize it.

To the girls:
ALL OF YOU >_>:

Some of you are annoying me...
IT'S NOT THE FUCKING END OF THE WORLD IF YOU DONT GET ASKED TO THE DANCE.
god damn it.
GO. WITH. FRIENDS. (its a lot of fun, ^^;;)
Some Advice:
1. Not having a bf is not the end of the world, it just means those morons havent wisened up and asked the wonderful person you are.
2. Do NOT get caught up in break on break off relationships. It's not worth it.
3. If your friend does not approve of who you are dating, ask them for a reason and evidence. And be wise enough to know when they are right.
4. Please dont let other's influence who you date. (you guys know what im talking about >_>;;)

^.^ And some hopes for you also~
(you'll know who you are)
- I hope your problems get sorted out. And that you dont care what others think.
- I hope he finally realizes, that you can be more than a friend, and that you WONT give up.
- I hope you find out exactly what you should do ^.^ and I hope he likes you too.
- I hope that this guy is right for you :3 you've been together for a Loonnnggg time <3
- I hope that your relationship ends happily and never ruins the friendship you guys have.
- I hope you find someone that can truly understand you (for everyone of you <3)
and finally
I hope that whether you're a guy or girl,
That you can find someone to appreciate ^.^

I love all of you :P
And this post came from the multiple problems at school,
the drama in life,
and the hopes that everyone has,
but no one wants to speak up and say them.

Flight 93

CREW
Lorraine G. Bay, 58, East Windsor, N.J.*
Sandra W. Bradshaw, 38, Greensboro, N.C.*
Jason Dahl, 43, Denver, Colo.*
Wanda Anita Green, 49, Linden, N.J.*
Leroy Homer, 36, Marlton, N.J.*
CeeCee Lyles, 33, Fort Myers, Fla.*
Deborah Welsh, 49, New York, N.Y.*

PASSENGERS
Christian Adams, 37, Biebelsheim, Germany*
Todd Beamer, 32, Cranbury, N.J.*
Alan Beaven, 48, Oakland, CA*
Mark K. Bingham, 31, San Francisco, Calif.*
Deora Frances Bodley, 20, San Diego, Calif.*
Marion Britton, 53, New York, N.Y.*
Thomas E. Burnett Jr., 38, San Ramon, Calif.*
William Cashman, 57, North Bergen, N.J.*
Georgine Rose Corrigan, 56, Honolulu, Hawaii*
Patricia Cushing, 69, Bayonne, N.J.*
Joseph Deluca, 52, Ledgewood, N.J.*
Patrick Joseph Driscoll, 70, Manalapan, N.J.*
Edward P. Felt, 41, Matawan, N.J.*
Jane C. Folger, 73, Bayonne, N.J.*
Colleen Laura Fraser, 51, Elizabeth, N.J.*
Andrew Garcia, 62, Portola Valley, Calif.*
Jeremy Glick, 31, Hewlett, N.J.*
Lauren Grandcolas, 38, San Rafael, Calif.*
Donald F. Greene, 52, Greenwich, Conn.*
Linda Gronlund, 46, Warwick, N.Y.*
Richard Guadagno, 38, of Eureka, Calif.*
Toshiya Kuge, 20, Nishimidoriguoska, Japan*
Hilda Marcin, 79, Budd Lake, N.J.*
Nicole Miller, 21, San Jose, Calif.*
Louis J. Nacke, 42, New Hope, Pa.*
Donald Arthur Peterson, 66, Spring Lake, N.J.*
Jean Hoadley Peterson, 55, Spring Lake, N.J.*
Waleska Martinez Rivera, 37, Jersey City, N.J.*
Mark Rothenberg, 52, Scotch Plains, N.J.*
Christine Snyder, 32, Kailua, Hawaii*
John Talignani, 72, New York, N.Y.*
Honor Elizabeth Wainio, 27, Watchung, N.J.*
Olga Kristin Gould White, 65, New York, N.Y.*

http://www.september11victims.com/september11victims/victims_list.htm

9.11.01/07

Because I have been having a hard time.
Keeping my mind from wandering and worrying about death.
I would like to remember the people who died.
Because being remembered, is how you stay alive.


Remember the people that tried.
And remember the ones that died.
Remember fellow friends who gave up.
And remember the loved ones who kept fighting.
Please oh please,
remember the people,
who found that jumping...
was the way out.
Remember the man who was calling 9-1-1
All the way,
Until the building collapsed.
His last words will haunt me forever.
Remember the children,
who have been robbed of their parents,
friends,
and family.
Remember my classmates who lost someone.
Remember, all those people.

And then,
Remember the people that are commonly forgotten.
Their braveness killed them,
but saved others.
R.I.P Flight 93.

----

Devin said in class yesterday: "I think the concept death is easier for those people who believe in heaven and hell"
Devin... you surprise me o_o thats exactly what I was thinking.

----

9.11 - The date that will haunt me. And the date, that wont bother many people. For some reason, the haunting goes on to people who live near New York and in New York. Or who lost someone.

----

May my thoughts be with you.
And keep your soul alive.

----

Remember the tragedy for the people lost and not the events of the day
-Liz

Thoughts

I guess worrying is a bit stupid.
No matter what I do it'll happen.
So I can keep thinking about whats in the end.
And keep working myself up.
And keep trying to just imagine what happens.
It comes no matter what.
So whats the point in worrying...
about something that is the end?

----

Drum-Off

>:/
Im angry at Mr. Jones.
Really really angry......
I'm to tired to explain. If you ever want to know why ask me this:
"What was with Mr. Jones at the USCBF"
I'll know what you mean >.>;;

Anyways...
The Band Festival (Drum Off) Went as such,
the marching bands got maybe 3-4 hours out of the 5 sitting around.
Guess what?
Lets just say Mr. Jones made it so that when we SHOULD have had 2-3 hours off. We were standing and playing the entire time.
Which means.
Starting from 5:50.
and Going until
11:03 pm.
We held the drums WITHOUT any break.
Oh wait no, we did get the 5 minutes in the bleachers...
-.-
Colin + Me = Sharing Looks Of Pain And Suffering
Colin plays Bass 5.
-.-
I play 4.
Im happy I at least dont have the biggest drum. But please let me describe exactly WHAT... this is like.
------------------

------------------
Next time you're bored, strap onto your chest/shoulders, a 55-70 pound object that sticks out at least 2 feet.
Stand in place for 3 hours. Not moving at all. No Talking. No Putting the drum down, No re positioning the weight, NO MOVING.
Then ^.^;;;
For the next 2, (I'll make this easy for you)
Walk around a track at least 10 times. (we counted)
Now for you that will be a lot easier considering a few things.
1. Bass Drums walk with the crab step march. (Walking sideways on your toes)
2. We are wearing...
- Wool Pants. >_> (thick) and black.
- A Wool Uniform Jacket.
- A hat that makes you sweat like hell.
- Marching Dress shoes ^^ (No sole support or anything, they are useless)
3. The weather was humid, and hot.
4. You dont have to worry about being slammed into or slamming into anyone
5. Or keeping in step
6. Or walking at the right speed
7. Or keeping your head turned the correct way.
-------------------

-------------------
Please do try this. I dare you. And if you do, and do it successfully ^.^ I will forever call you a moron and point and laugh at you (no really I'd be amazed).

To tired to write more... to much pain. Im a walking zombie. But just one thing...


Angela ._. why are you online?
Why the HELL are you online.
Im more pissed then happy right now.
I went through weeks of worrying and emoness because my friend was gone.
And then it's like you change your mind (yet again).
You cant leave us hanging.
._.
As much as I love you its a bit harder if you make us sad multiple times.
ily .___.
*higgles*

Haha XD

I think my mood swings scare people *bwahahahaha*
Deal with it.

I went to school for the last class of the day o_O
All school days should be like that...

Im a bit rushed and have to get ready.
DrumLine dinner at Rachel's house...
Because we have a game tonight X_X;;
Gwah.

I was really drugged last night XD
Had a migraine and felt drunk with all the meds I had to take.
Oh well...

I finished the 2nd book (New Moon).
Im officially addicted to the Twilight series. ;-;
Along with gally...
and sara..
and the other sara...
and krissy...
^^
I love them... time to beg someone for the third book.


I'll try to write again after the game (which will end late)
IT'S GOING TO BE 90 FUCKING DEGREES.
Wish me luck...
the uniform is made of wool >_>
Time to go die.

<3 you all~

I wish I could stop thinking

Shoot me please.
My mother.
Is.
Driving.
Me.
Crazy.
I know all parents do,
but I just want to cry.

This isnt the obvious kind of crazy,
She's taking whatever annoyance she has at me dad, and taking it out on me.
They fight everyday now,
and I cant lock my door.

She wont leave me alone.
Every word out of her mouth is a nag.
Or telling me how stupid I am.
How Im not doing well enough.
Or what I havent done right.
I havent heard anything besides that out of her fucking mouth.

When you invision doing ANYTHING to shut, even you mother, up...
It's a warning that you're going over the deep end.
And things arent working.
You've gotta either totally break down.
Or incase yourself with a barrier that CANNOT crack.
The years I've spent coming out of my barrier...
are wasted.
Because Im going back.
To what I was.
When my brother was home.

10 years old, young.... and you shouldnt have problems at that age.
Instead, I was crying every night.
Going to the guidance counselor.
But I couldnt tell her much anyways.
My brother went off to college...
The arguments and taking things out on me passed.
And then something switched this summer and spring.
It's back to normal.

Even my mom.
Who I look too.
Is growing farther away.
Im welcoming the future.
and when I can leave this hell.
They dont even know me.
Fuck it.
They can be blind.
They can not understand.
They can stand confused,
when I leave.
And NEVER.
Look back.




I really want to talk to someone. Well, not even talk. I want someone to LISTEN. I really want them to listen for once. I really do. Is it normal for a 10 year old to wish for someone to hold them? Because now... years later, I still wish that.
My parent's arms are empty.
And they refuse to hold anything in them.

So Im going to go cry myself to sleep like usual.
Great.
It'll become normal again.

And steven....
Steven says: (10:07:28 PM)
why the hell would he joke about suicide..? =\

"He wasnt joking."

-----

ily fifi <3
and you too dash.

ily tons steven. *cling*
I may be offline for a few days since my mother is being a bitch. (;-; email me?)
and I wish you werent offline...
and I wish that I could stay on longer.
and god I really wish...
I could stop thinking.
Put my mind to rest.
Just stop thinking...
And cry.

What Isnt Funny

Here's a lesson to some of you people that read this.
Im pretty good about "jokes" now.
But things I do NOT ever find funny,
are here:

Joking about suicide
Example:
alex: lolololololol
liz: o_O
alex: if you dun hear from me tomorow i overdosed
alex: lolololololo
alex: wow i forgot the l
alex: I fail
liz: thats not funny
alex: dun you talk to me like that youngin
liz: lmao
liz: its not funny at all
liz: w.e if you overdose, your loss, gnight.

(Not exact convo since Im to lazy to go into history)
Alex took 4 Extra Strength Tylenol PM ^^
Goodluck bastard -.-

ANOTHER SUBJECT THAT IS *NOT* FUNNY:

Joking about retardation.
Please do, I dare you.
I will, smack your fat face.
And kick you in your ass.
Its not funny.
They cant help it.
DO NOT JOKE ABOUT IT.


I could go on and on. Im not in a good mood if you can tell. Lets hope my moron of a friend doesnt die huh?

Steeevvveeeeeennnn!

<333333333xmillion
zomg *cling*
Im so glad XD
and...
you messaged me at... 6:30?

I just got home at 11:07 pm >_>
So even if my spirit was hovering over the computer, there is NO way I could have responded XD
Soooooo~
ily <3
and sorry I missed when you were online XDD
and dont kill connor too much ._.

"Steven says: (4:22:19 PM)
hmmm yes i can still beat his ass in an abdomen cast, by the way. <_<
Steven says: (4:22:33 PM)
i'll just roll on top of him :3"

x))))
Violence makes me laugh @_@ Woooooot. Im proud of that.
And dont worry, I will stuff elmo in the trash can.

Gally Update:
Our kids are currently hanging onto the roof...
I kinda sent them up there and then there was a wind storm...
Elmos hanging onto the gutter trying to scurry up it...
He's quite determined.....
It's creepy.....

------

Im proud to say that the only people that have the link to this blog ARRREEEE,
Dashiell,
Phylicia (Gally),
Eric (Mummy),
Steven (<333 ;o Im glad you're reading it),
Diddy (? maybe?)
Angela (._. Doesnt matter anymore)
Any of my other friends irl since it's apparently gotten passed around >_>;;

-----

Ah yes... I forgot something... o_o;;
The DrumLine Party....
That was before the game...
We had food at Kish's house @_@ So much fun... Her cute little dog was trying to mooch off of us XD
Then, Nicole, Kish and I jumped into her pool XD
Followed by 2 other guys, and....
Kyle....
Who was pushed in...
which was funny...
Because he was in a bathing suit >_>
But then...

(Will get back to that story here's what happened just now)
***: Elizabeth, mom said I have to unplug the internet and I dont want to do that...
Me:....Tell mom Im writing something in my blog >_>
***: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *laughs maniacally*
Me:wtf?
***:*still laughing*
Me: Okkkkaaayyy...
(Back to the story)

But then...
Kyle grabs Zait's leg (the guy who pushed him in)
And Zaits was in his uniform shirt and and pants with his cell phone etc >_>;;
And Kyle pulled him in...
Which caused a ton of cursing from Zaits,
Who immeditaly took his shoes off and flung them and grabbed his cell phone and flung that to rachel along with his wallet so they wouldnt get even more wet.
Zaits was pissed.
XD
And we were all laughing.... hysterically.
Then Zaits decided to try what we were all thinking about since he was already wet.
What we were wondering was if you could jump from the upper deck railing into a 3 foot pool without dying... (the railing is over 15 feet above the pool and like, 5 feet away from the pool side)
So before we know what he's doing he gets on the railing and jumps...
Lands IN the pool (somehow)
and creates a tidal wave XD
That was a bit funny...

Anyways,
In the pool was... Me, Nicol, Kish, Colin, Danny, a guy I forget his name..., Kyle, Zaits, and... shit whats his name ._. he's the other senior... gah, I'll nickname him Ginger since thats what he calls himself XD
Anyways... that was the highlight of the party BD....

Nothing much else to say. This blog is definitly helping since I want to sell SOMEONE this but I cant.
BECAUSE (warning rant coming)
1. Mark isnt online *kicks*
2. No friends are online >_>
3. I missed steven coming online *emo*
4. NO ONE CALLS ME (bitches...)
5. Though Alex did call me.... (<3333)
6. Oh wait no eric is online... YAY

Signing Out. Eric talking time! >_> *cling*

ily steven <3333 *huggles*
( the ***'s are blocking out my brother's name since he was like: >_> <_< MY NAME IS TO BE SECRET *coughcough*
-Lizz

Omg - Football!

XDDD
I LOVE THE STUDENT SECTION.
Dude-they were drunk, BUT THAT DOESNT MATTER!
They shouted "We Want DrumLine" For over 10 minutes @_@;;
before Rachel let us go over and play.
Lmaaaooo~
They were dancing XD In a crowded section, I thought one was gonna fall over the railing or something.
We were forced to play the song again. Which was fun.
I love this XD a TON.

Bad thing?
The team we were playing against.... were TOTAL bitches.
Scene: Halftime Show
((they went first))
End of their part:
*Flag people chatting instead of PICKING UP THEIR DAMN FLAGS*
Rachel: TAPS, NOW.
Kyle: *starts taps*
Whole band* Marches out
Rachel: Bass Drums, pick up the pace!
Bass Drum Line: *trips over and steps on the flags that were NOT picked up like they were suppossed to be*
Other Team Flag Girl: *comes over and hits my drum hard* Thanks for stepping on our flags you bitch.
Me: I was glad to!
Her: >____> *picks up the flags*
Marching band people: *snickering at the flag girl*

@_@ Jackass... Also their fans were boo-ing us the ENTIRE time while we politely clapped for their band.
Wow, I'm SO glad we kicked their asses.

END SCORE
US: 17
THEM: 7
BOO-YAH


We figured out our t-shirt slogan.
DrumLine 07-08
JUMP ON IT.

XD Lol you wont get it. Dont worry. But its hilarious to us.



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Wtf.
Diddy.
Get.
Online.
NOW.
something had BETTER not of happened to you.
This is like... a week.
IM FEELING DEPRIVED OF MY DIDDY TALK EVERYDAY.
And I miss you ._. a looottttt, I talk to you like... every daaayyy for the past yeeaaarrr.... *hug* T_T ALSO MY DiDDY HUG COUNT WILL NOT GO UP *emo* Get online ._. please. I dont want to hold a funeral.

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Uhm... Steven gets his own post *chyea*
-starts typing next one-

Parade @ K-Wood

^.^
EEEEeeeeee~!!!!!
*jumps up and down all hyperish*
I couldnt type this last night since I was insanely tired.

Here's what happened :333
We met up at the high school at around 4 o'clock pm. Got all the instruments on the last bus... and tried to get the bass drums on a loaded bus through the emergency exit... which took about 40 minutes... or so it seemed.
I sat next to Ann on the bus ^^ I somehow got switched from bus 4 to bus 1, so I was on a senior bus. It was hilarious XD
Anyways, we get there around... 5:30-6:00? dunno. We're allowed to go on the rides until 7.... so I caught up with krissy, jenny, emily, and her other friends. FiFi, be JEALOUS. This was the only time, that we got into the Exterminator with only a 3-5 minute late. the room was EMPTY. So we went on that, the Pit Fall, and the Phantom's Revenge.... rushed over to potato patch to eat fries and ran to the meeting point.
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Where.... I found kyle... XD
and the rest of the drumline o_o;;
Well most of them... and mr Pickel wouldnt tell us where our drums where -.- Until the WHOLE drumline was here. So we waited until the whole drumline was there, and asked him AGAIN, and he said "go to the turnpike there should be some people there that know"
"......."
WE JUST CAME FROM THERE -_-
So we went there, walked, found the people, found the bus, got the drums out, practiced, I learned a new candice in under 5-10 minutes... and the rest of the band came, got their instruments, we all lined up.... and waited. waited and waited...
Then the floats in front of us started moving, we starting marching to taps... and my and colin were both trying to keep in step with each other and listen to kyle's taps carefully. Then the taps changed, drum sticks went out, and I think we played Spyder first (candice)... then Bust It Up (candice)... then the roll-off came, which UNLIKE all other times this summer I got each time... Then the band played uhhh... cant spell it. It's like, our theme song... then we played a candice or 2 more, then rolloff then the band played Brick House. It went like that... we were so amped we made little kids cover their ears! Boo-yah! Apparently the parade lasted for like 45 minutes or more, it seemed like 5 to me XD Anyways, saying that... I had an AWESOME time, and as we marched back we set our drums down, let the band go before us, and waited for them to leave.
Then we huddled up and Kyle was really surprised at how we played XD Woooooo!!!
So we tried to think of something to say,
And we ended up screaming Fuck Em at the top of our lungs and then running of to get our drums.
Which we lugged back to the bus and started putting away.
*Cell phone rings*
Krissy: WHERE ARE YOU?
Me: Uh putting the drums away? do you have to ask? XD
Krissy: >_>
*etc etc* :P I love you kriisssyyy~
So anyways, I was on the phone when my drums turn was up XD I felt bad, cause I was on the phone and needed to hang up but krissy wasnt talking she was discussing when we'd meet up to her friends. I must have looked purely innocent with a "not my fault" face because instead of glaring at me kyle goes "here I'll get that" and just lifts my drum up himself. Which was a big deal how he said that >_> because my mind was going (YES! IM ACCEPTED XDDD)
Found out I am o_O;; they all talk to me. Kinda fun. I guess they just needed an example of what I can do. Iunno ^^
SO anyways I felt so guilty that I helped him with the other 2 bass drums and all the harnesses... I think I was forgiven XD
=/
I kinda ditched Krissy @_@ I DIDNT MEAN TO!
The drumline all decided to go eat ice cream, which I was definitly agreeing too (I love dip n dots) XD
So we got that, and I was gonna go on a ride or 2 with them then go back to krissy, which was the deal :3
So they wanted to go on the exterminater again... and I went along since I loved the ride and it should be fun XD
Except, there was a line this time XD
and it took up like, most of our time... but was so worth it.
and we had maybe... 10 minutes until 10, and I kinda decided that even if I called krissy I didnt want to delay them from any last ride they could be taking. =/
So... we all rushed to the T-Bolt, rode it once, and ran as fast as we could back to the buses.... got on the buses, left, and randomly decided to try to agree on what would be on our drumline t-shirts (since we were all on 1 bus). One of the examples of our brainstorming was:
"Stick it like Chuck Norris"
or just
"Stick It"
Dunno we'll decide tomorrow <3

I loved yesterday XD I came home and just crashed. Woke up a little bit ago and now I have to get ready for the dinner party we're having before our first game @_@;; Which I have to play at, which Im a BIT nervous about... but I CAN DO IT XD

Drumline's going to Kish's house. Eep, I need to go get ready ._.




Diddy?
Where are you?
Please come online...
I really dont want another person to be hurt ._.

Kanashimi wo Yasashisa Ni

[Yes I can sing this]
sousa kanashimi wo yasashisa ni
jibun rashisa wo chikara ni
mayoinagarademo ii arukidashite
mou ikkai mou ikkai

dareka no kitai ni zutto kotae
homerarerunoga suki nano desuka?
naritai jibun wo surikaetemo
egao wa itsudemo suteki desuka?

hajimaridake yume mite okiru
sono saki nara itsuka jibun no ude de

souda daiji na mono wa itsumo
katachi no nai mono dake
te ni iretemo nakushitemo
kizukanumama

sousa kanashimi wo yasashisa ni
jibun rashisa wo chikara ni
mayoinagarademo ii arukidashite
mou ikkai mou ikkai

zurui otona wa deau tabi
atama gohashi na sekkyou dake
jibun wo sunao ni dasenaku natte
kizutsukinagara sugu ni togatte

atarashii kaze mikata ni tsukete
sagashite iinda itsuka aoi tori wo

souda daiji na mono wa itsumo
katachi no nai mono dake
te ni iretemo nakushitemo
kizukanumama

sousa kanashimi wo yasashisa ni
jibun rashisa wo chikara ni
mayoinagarademo ii arukidashite

namida no ato ni wa nazeka fukkireta
sora ni niji ga deru you ni shizen na koto
ame wa agatta

dakara daiji na mono wa itsumo
katachi no nai mono dake
te ni iretemo nakushitemo
kizukanumama

sousa kanashimi wo yasashisa ni
jibun rashisa wo chikara ni
kiminara kitto yareru shinjite ite
mou ikkai mou ikkai
mou ikkai mou iikai?

Second Day

@_@;;
I am on top of the game!
Woooooo~
Homework: Done
Drumline: dead but done!

Updates:

School:
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I kinda went on auto pilot AGAIN today. I cant even remember everything. The mods go by REALLY fast ._.

Teacher Status:
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Homeroom Dude: <33
Civics: XD LOL *hugs* I looovveee him.
Civics Intern: :3333 you're cool.
Herr Shnieder: o_O Strangely I find you interesting. but mean Dx
Bio: ._. Nicest person Eber!
English: >___> *stabs* Woman, Give me the fucking bonus point! I had the supplies the FIRST day. Not even the second >_> And you get all nit-picky because I forgot to label "1" divider. *strangles*
Math: No Comment... not sure.
3-D Art: Oooooo boy. Look for the rest of the updates to hear about what I did today XDD

News in school:
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Lets skip to 3-D Art! (last 2 mods of the day)
We were suppossed to draw something that represents ourself so she can know a bit more about us. Lets just say, after being deprived from creativity through the rest of the day, I was really bored. Soooo, let me describe what I drew XD

It's a deformed cross between a bug, and lizard, and a dinosaur... which has fairy wings. He's happy and singing with hearts flying out of his eyes, oh... and he's holding a bomb from "the demented cartoon movie" the bomb is happy and singing and is saying "Zeeky Boogy Doog" WHILE, the is TNT blowing up in the one corner near a cursing angry pacman with fangs.
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Oh and it says 3-D Art is fun.
I was suppossed to turn it in, but I loved it so much I asked her if I could keep it XD
Imma tape it to the wall next to my bed. >BD

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Drumline Injuries:
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No Fatal Injuries yet.
No long term injuries yet.
One REALLY bad problem today.
We pissed off mr. jones...
so he mad us run.
and when I say run... I mean we had to run lines. the ENTIRE time. it was insane. then... -.- Zaits, the same guy that threw up the first day, fell.
We THOUGHT he fell. but he actually lost enough oxygen to spasm, and fall over not breathing. Which I really do understand and know how that feels. Exercise induced asthma is an ass. anyways, he was on the ground not being able to breathe for maybe 5-10 minutes ._. then he got up and I didnt see him for a bit, but he came back and played the snare again. @_@;;

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ANYWAYS~ Imma post the song that I memorized. It's in Japanese. I can sing it correctly, pronounciation and accented words. it was a pain, but I was bored.

For the Girls

(If you havent realized it, im posting my favorite song lyrics either every day or every other day (my fav. songs change that often!)
[This one's for all you girls about thirteen
High school canbe so rough, can be so mean
Hold onto, on to your innocence
Stand your ground when everyone's giving in

This one's for the girls

This is for all you girls about twenty-five
In a little apartment, just trying to get by
Living on, on dreams and spaghetti-o's
Wondering where you life is gonna go

This one's for the girls
Who've ever had a broken heart
Who've wished upon a shooting star
You're beautiful the way you are
This one's for the girls
Who love without holding back
Who dream with everything they have
All around the world
This one's for the girls

This is for all you girls about forty-two
Tossing pennies into the Fountain of Youth
Every laugh, laugh line on your face
Made you who you are today

This one's for the girls
Who've ever had a broken heart
Who've wished upon a shooting star
You're beautiful the way you are
This one's for the girls
Who love without holding back
Who dream with everything they have
All around the world
This one's for the girls

Yeah, we're all the same inside (same inside)
From 1 to 99

This one's for the girls
Who've ever had a broken heart
Who've wished upon a shooting star
You're beautiful the way you are
This one's for the girls
Who love without holding back
Who dream with everything they have
All around the world
This one's for the girls
Yeah, this one's for the girls]

More Shine

[More shine today
Let’s just say the admirations been unfit for who I am
Who I’d rather not be
I see stone people with no names
Don’t move and let the wind speak
You hear it clearly
I’d rather not be

More shine today
Let’s just say the admirations been unfit for who I am
Who I’d rather not be
I see stone people with no names
Don’t move and let the wind speak
You hear it clearly
I’d rather not be

My sudden love is
My sudden love is wide
My sudden love is
My sudden love is wide

More shine today
Let’s just say
Things aren’t and always quite as good as they seem
So how good can they be
When all these people live in vain
Just live to make ends meet
That’s reality
Oh, I’d rather not be

My sudden love is
My sudden love is wide
My sudden love is
My sudden love is wide

Oh my sudden love is
My sudden love is wide
My sudden love is
My sudden love is wide

More shine today
I see stone people with no names
And I’d rather not be

My sudden love is
My sudden love is wide
My sudden love is
My sudden love is wide

My sudden love is
My sudden love is wide
My sudden love is
My sudden love is wide

Why do I do the things that I do
Why do I do the things that I do]

.:Edward:.

I have a really cool picture of Edward on my cell phone now.
After months of not seeing my brother,
I did!
I got to have dinner with him also ^^
And he let me hug him.
I am in, an good and bad mood.
It's a bit interesting.

I got to see my brother in an awesome mood. I love that.
Then again.
My mind had to ruin it.

It's in a wandering mood, I dont think people realize how in-depth I think.
I cant even describe what I was thinking here, it would take maybe 30 minutes to type (which I dont have) and would be way to long. If you want to know... tell me... and I may tell you =/
Anyways, whenever I think like that I get depressed. But Im somewhat okay now.
and then for the 8th time today I thought of him @_@
Him = ? (psh screw you if you dont know XD)

._. *huggles steven*
I feel worse everyday
I cant do anything!!!!
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Nothing else to say.

Whisper

Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me
Into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

[Chorus:]
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

[Chorus]

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet the end

[Chorus x3]
Servatis a pereculum.
Servatis a maleficum

First Day

First day of high school.
Many surprises.
Awesome seniors XD
Cool Juniors
Insane Sophmores.
And of course.
My Crazy Grade.

I thought I'd have tons of shit to tell you but,
I forgot how much I loved them.
ALL of them! Even the guys XD though my homeroom... omg.
Worst combination EVER.

Josh Russo,
Connor Scott,
Austin Scotty,
Ryan,
etc.
IN THE SAME HOMEROOM *takes all the sympathy from friends*
I know I know.
It's hilarious though.
(for those who dont know them... they are by far, the WORST and the FUNNIEST people in my grade, especially when together)

Anyways... Status Time!

Civics Teacher: <33333 He's really nice and awesome, hopefully his class wont be boring!
Civics Intern: XD Wooooo *hugs*
Bio Teacher: Omg you're REALLY nice XD Bake us cookies like the last year's class!!!
English Teacher: =/ Strict. Very. But you seem nice. (not sure)
Geo: Nice XD Strict. Im not sure about you. Though you do have OCD....
Herr Shnieder: >_>;; No Comment yet
Phys ED: AHAHAHAHAHAHA No... *kicks* you creep me out XDD
3D ART (elective): O_O;;; I love you... SOOOO much. We have her last 2 mods of the day, so she lets us eat and drink in her class (banned through out the school) ANNNDDD listen to our mp3 players XD <333333
HomeRoom Dude: awesome XD I might take AP Honors English sometime! But nooootttt yet.


So thats it so far!

Complaints about school:
Lunch room has enough seats for about half the people >_>;; I ate on the floor... I was lucky to grab floor space!
I am NEVER taking directions from other students XDD
I hate the mod bell.

Good things:
.... to tired to think. there's a LOT! (I'll right them next time maybe)

I hope you dance

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)